Breatheeeee!

Whenever i have time, i just need to blog.
i need to rant out my frustrations.
i know i'm killing more of my time, but i believe i deserve this 10 min to rest.

spent the whole morning moving freezer.
apparently, i'm proud to have installed new wheels for my baby freezer.
i actually managed to push it out of level 7 on my own, without trolley and help.
that means - it's good buy!
that made me a little happier.

i have a paper cutter face.
asc kids ran after me looking for paper cutter in the morning.
i think i'm slowly changing from advisory role to something that i don't want to be - babysitter
these kids just need tooo much care and concern to make them work.
were we like that in the past? i don't think so.
now i can vividly rem how i had random meetings for prep talks for main comms.

oh well - perhaps it's time to change leadership style.
told tan kb about the joke i had in the morn, baby who cried for help on phone.
he sent simple sms to say it's openhse, peer tutoring cant start, cant be blamed.
and he replied, 'okay!thankyou mr tan! =D'.
sometimes... i just do not know what to say abt him.
retarded? sometimes. cute? sometimes. ridiculously naive? YES definitely.
I guess these kinda funny things kept me going.

ASc Club - took it up for the sake of improving myself, stepping up to brand new lvl.
it's corny how i came from subcomm, to main, to mentor, and now advisor.
uncertainties are scaring the hell out of me.
people have no idea the stress i am having, to create a Week 0 of my own.
For a moment, i forgot the reason why there's a need for orientation.
because everything i could think of was my port folio at the end of the year.
Until my own very boss reminded me of the reason for me to be there.
For the new cluesless kids who enter - to enjoy, to learn, to adjust.
and now, i look at things with new perspectives, because i know what i want to achieve at the end of the day.
now i rem - my main reason to join student development - to develop leaders.
these idiotic kids make me forget that MOST of time! Talk about motivating myself.

Moving On,
I recalled how i took time for the past 2 days with the help of yaoli to pour all 500 cups of melted ice creams
into a big pail for discarding.
power trip - killed all my babies. Level 7 is protesting! 'They' want me out of there i guess.
because dateline to shift out was 4th Jan, i din comply, and power tripped.
HOw scary - I had been trying not to think. it was just pure coincidence.

Spent hrs emptying the cups, and another grosss session in level 7 guys toilet.
I would say - valuable experience - it caused me to scold f* word more than 20 times that morn.
everywhere was filled with chocolate... foams got onto walls, floors, toilet bowls.
Worst of all - I was stuck in guys toilet with a boy in the midst of day.
got a student to guard toilet for me while we cleaned up the mess.
There was a guy student who tried to be funny, he yelled
'who's the idiot who's hogging on to the toilet? why cant i go in, i really need to pee what!'
i got pissed, opened the door with a face which i suppose could 'ward evil' and glared damn hard at him.

'what do you want? is there no toilet downstairs?'
He saw my staff pass, and said, 'oh, yes there is, i'm sorry'
'go now pls' and he scrambled off.
some ppl, just deserve to get scolded!

Best experience ever - I cleaned up the boys toilet.
Now i think i can go cambodia! SIs - take me in! HAHAHA.

ALrights.
I gotta go.
more of such nonsense will just kill me.
i don't think i need to take up a cleaner job as well......... SIGH.

BYE