It's taking over

lethargy is taking over me.

requested for time off tomor.
there's a limit one can go.
camp was based on the run of adrenaline
and you know it's over when you begin a new day at work.

four days of delivery was disgusting.
not too heavy, cuz i've had help.
but the part about travelling to and forth everyday of my life
is wearing me out.

my mind and body tell me, grace say no to tonights event.
AR simulation, 7pm - 7am.
because i know just taking one day off will nv help with the accumulation of overwork load.
but i know, at the end of the day, i'll still make it.
even if i'm to slp when im there.
it's the heart that matters.
well, i work irrationally most of the time anyway.

had the talk i wanted with the kids.
hope this is the last time we'll say this.
because, one more time, and it's over.
i do not have to wait for wallace, i'll do the necessary.

the art of saying yes sucks.
grace can u help me? grace can u do this for me?
yes... whenever im free, i'll help.
feeling so stretched right now...
sigh.

i need to learn the art of the opposite.

it feels weird being in the student development team.
because now officially im in the loop of all the advisors email.
it's weird.
because... now i finally have a chance to see what kinda things they talk about.
cca awards... time off. lala.
i don't really care.
cant wait for next AY to start.
let it be a brand new start. this is where my passion lies.
question: will the passion last?
i do not know.

damn tired. want to die already.
don't feel like doing work at all.
stomach cramps is killing me.
no cold or acidic drink for the rest of the day.
cuz it's gonna sting me like mad.
i need strength to carry on. every min my eyes are barely opened.

cya.