*AHEM*

cough cough cough.
wrong time of the month.
I'm dying with the non-stop coughing and the pain it triggers at my abdomen.
BIG FAT SIGH.

my back is terribly burnt!
brrrr. grrrrr.
everything that adds weight to my shoulder triggers pain.
GOSH.
Thats the price one gotta pay for not wanting a teeshirt tann. =(

weekend is now over.
thank god it's gonna be a short week ahead.
but trust me. i need to finish 5 full days of work within 3.
doing more lab than usual this week, when i have only 3.5 days.
travelling is gonna waste me so much time.
i wish i have a driver. i wish i have a car. i wish i have ice creams at home.

Wednesday is drawing new.
trust me. i do not know if im turning up.
whether that makes a difference to any, it doesnt matter.
but i believe my views and opinions will be shared.
so... perhaps theres no such a need to be present.
all the good people are around.
furthermore, I may not want to be seen.
so.. it's better not to appear.
reflection time is taking long.
getting me emo all over again.
jumbling up my beliefs and perspectives.
encouragiing? have i not done any?
protecting? if it's gonna be accumulative.. i know sorry wont help.
then it's time i start protectng myself.
i do not know anymore.

Now, QSS?
i'm not even sure if im up to it.
it's hard to strike a balance right now.
pioneers are not moving at all. disappointing once again.
and with the addditional ME.
feeling of uncertainty is not helping.
the month of june is just 2 pages off the calendar. what should i be doing then?


spoke to one of my cellmate from church.
do i want to go back there?
deep down, it's a definite yes.
i just do not know whats holding me back.
guilt? leaving without a word was seriously not nice.
pride? just dont want to be asked questions.
but i do miss them.
sigh. well well well.

i want to slp.
waking up damn early tmor to be ms nice person at work
gdnight.