It's finally year 2009

happy new year.
everyone goes saying..
but who knws, if it'll be a happier year?

well. year 2008 ended suckily.
it ended with woes, anger, and tears.
sigh. i really thank god that the year has ended.

looking back,
everyone has experienced their so called worst ordeals so far.
filled with sadness, confusion, and swirl of emotions.
sigh. some learnt, some still learning, while some is in the midst of healing.

it's depressing to have heard the most unwanted news on a new yr's eve.
and of course, angry that the year had the end this way to sum up this lousy 365 days.
how many ppl should we lose in order to make us feel worse?

had been thinking of my new year resolutions.
1) to nv repeat the mistakes i've committed this year
learning not to be so gullible as ever. and retarded.

2) to be true to what i feel.
shall try hard not to feel like im entertaining ppl all the time. but to enjoy ppls presence. and sound out if i don't like it and not pretend to like things that im doing. thats gay.

3) to be a strong support for ppl i love.
for my family, will earn more money. and help my mum with some housechores which i nv did.
for my friends, i want to be able to stand strong when they're weak. i really want to. it just sucks not having the least idea how to be there for ppl, but i belive we'll all learn how.

4) do well for my new job. =)

5) learn more. in church service.

bahhhh. there's perhaps a 1001 things i want to do. and these are obviouisly on the top of my list.

sigh. im not feeling very happy though it's a brand new year. just praying that it'll not turn out too bad a year like how the previous year did for many of us.

sigh! shall give out this LOUD sigh and look forward to the new year.
experiences make ppl grow. thats wad i firmly believe in.

look forward. and don't look back unnecessarily.