Hell-O

wow. i've had a good physical workout for the past 2 days.
trolleys and trolleys of cartons of medicines just waited for me to check and clear.
climbed up and down the shelves, moved tonnes of stuff, just to fit all in.
too bad, that my dear colleague was still on mc.
it's her 4th day today. guess it's really serious this time round.

well. i'm glad she din turn up for work today
cuz i don't think she'll be strong enough to move any stocks anyway.
though im complaining big time being tired, i'll still do the job anyway.
just that.. haha with my complementary grumpy face.

wallace.
working at tp?
just realised pay wouldnt be as good as wad i wanted.
and if i leave in nov, i wont get my year end bonus.
im not ready for that at all.
interested in learning something new
all rounded stuff - eg, finance, quotations, technical work, real admin work.
perhaps not something that i like
but yes, skills that'd prob benefit me big time next time.
i like the flexibility of the job nature.
others should not say eew to this cuz they've nv work in ttsh pharmacy before.

sigh.
got pissed off by the bitchy supervisor who's snatching my leave day today.
just nice, i wasnt in the perfect mood today
had serious bad headache that i had to pop panadol and some painkillers early in morn
then... crowd came, and became one of the busiest mornings after so many months
and she came at the not-so-perfect timing - Lunch time, where only 3 staff are left to do shit work..
so yup. i snapped.
the usual grace chan tone, and yup, i could see she was a little not-so-pleasantly surprised.
but, yes, shunned her off and she did wad she was SUPPOSED to do.
that was - to coordinate with her partner to find out wads happening.
before she dares to hound me AGAIN for the pathetic leave day tt i alr gave up for.

i guess sometimes. u're not called nice if ppl always have their way.
thats called stupid.
to have ppl stepping all over, just because u only know how to complain.
but not say a word when being confronted.
i was stupid. but im not going to do so again.
at least for that bitchy woman.

looking at my language for today.
yes, imperfect mood. lousy as to say.
cuz there's just too much work to do in the day.
and now i've to worry for job undone and gotta rush it out by monday.
but decided to heck abt it, since... i left all of it there and cant do a shit abt it.
HMPH.
well. complaining, but im enjoying a fulfilling lifestyle.
working horribly seems to be my fav thing after all.

NOT to serve pts all the time.
but the thrill to make sure waiting time for each pt passes everyday seems exciting.
and datelines to meet.
and yes, do all rounded work, admin, physical movements, talking, thinking.
why cant they just give me one role that does that ALL the time.
only sometimes. which really disappoints me, somehow.
jobscope cant satisfy me, yet.. WELFARE sucks big time too.

my patience and tolerance for ppl these days..
are getting from bad to worse.
im so sorry. but like i said. big heart has shrunk.
not as forgiving like before, not as encouraging.

so when ppl tell me they're dying cuz of many factors.
i so want to say, hello. im dying too.
i'm like a rubber band, after u pull too hard, it snaps.
it did.

just to conclude, this week hasnt been good.
heavy workload - lousy mood - confused w the great philosophies of life -
Oh one more, am i really that unbearable sometimes?
i may be petty, easily annoyed, and yup, fierce to some.
but at the end of the day, i wont do that if i don't care.
so.. if one day i don't say anything more, means i no longer bother abt that person.

meli sms-ed me today.
asked me how am i. i din reply.
din know how. and din want to.
imperfect mood makes imperfect decisions.
may be a bad choice, but u know, i don't really care anymore.

met wg for dinner.
complained and whined abt my whole entire life.
i wonder how he was able to take it listening to such things all the time.
another big hearted soul. but yup, perhaps just for me. perhaps

back home early today!
mum'd say im a good girl.
not feeling too well, so it's a good choice to stay home.

Agenda for my SAt - Work, painting in my bro's new hse, JAnelle at st james.
guess im gonna be tired on sunday.
shouldnt had been so kind to volunteer to help to paint.
since im not that kind anyway. sometimes. haha!

alrights. LONGggGG entry today.
time to surf net.
too much to think abt
i shall just watch korean show thruout the night.
super lazy to wake up early tomor. but it's life.

=) alrights. i shall be a good girl.
haha.
will i ever be able to stay home from mon to sun and not go out? that depends on wads my reward. =) haha.

nights.