Godzilla here i come!

haha.
it's almost 5am in the morning.
unbelivable. im still awake.
but i know i wont be able to hold on any longer.
would be turning in once im done with this entry..

well.
i'm quite tired.
haha. dinner with wg at blu jazz cafe last night
walked for 3 hrs from bugis back home.
im glad i was still alive by then
just that my legs did not feel like mine anymore.
walked thru geylang thru the alleys.
it was a spectacular sight seeing alleys filled with girls and guys. scary too.

wokred this morning.
and gosh. how busy can it get on a weird sat morning.
talked nonstop for like 4 hours. how interesting.
had lunch with my girly friend jeremy who waited for me to end work.
then went home. and slept.

did not realise how tired i was until i woke up reluctantly from that barely 1hr slp i had.
went back to tp for some band concert with wg.
it was a collaboration btwn the youth winds symphony band and INT sch.
lecturers created animation for visual pleasure while the music was played.
a super nice piece was played 'godzilla eats up las vegas' or soemthing whereby there're many parts whereby there'll be ppl screaming in feear.. and the instruments were imitating the cries of godzilla. haha. how interesting.
i must say it was splendid. as in watching a story created while blending in with the songs played.
will post some of the pictures up one day if i ever get it uploaded from my phone.
haha.
i've to say i enjoyed the time sitting in there. though i did feel slpy at some point. =p

soon. at 1pm woudl be meeting my beloved ppl.
peck sister and zw for seoul garden.
oh man. my hair's gonna stink after that.
haha. but it's worth it since it's for zw's bdae.
hopefully my thoughts would be cleared by then.

i alr said i'll be the cause of all problems.
pretending to be normal and going out doesnt solve the prob..
i love the kinda r/s im having.
but i cant say im not afraid of breaking the balance.
why is it so difficult to maintain things. perhaps it's much easier to take a step forward
than to be stuck in the middle of nowhere.
i understand that feeling.
but im sorry. theres nothing i can do about it.
cuz at the end of the day, i'm always that wishy washy
too many factors, too much worries.
not that i don't understand the dilemma. but im not feeling that well either.

sigh. thats how life has made me become.
one that refuses to stop and turn and look behind
and don't have the guts to look ahead.
forever stuck at wherever i am right now.
don't know where to go, wad to do.
i hate this feeling. and the retarded heart of mine.

it'll be good.
if everyone is happy ard me.
that'd be a great uplift of spirits
but sadly everyone has their own problems in life
which right now, i doubt i can do anything abt it.
i've learnt to raise my hands and admit i need a break.
cuz perhaps it's too much for me to handle.

im damn slpy.
i don't even know wad the heck im saying.
alright. time for slp.
i look really haggard these days. =(

nights.