Princess hours rocks!

haha. hello to my beloved ppl around.

oh well. another week has passed! nowadays time is passing so fast! haha.

hmmm well. i'd been watching the korean show Goong. ha, i'm damn gay i know, as this show was like shown in year 2006. haha. bleah. but wa lao, i cant believe i only started watching recently! cuz... it's really DAMN nice. haha the guy's very cute, and the girl as well. haha. i'd been crazy over it for the past one week. sleeping late every single night just to finish up all the episodes. gosh. im mad i know. the show was rather draggy at certain parts man, and im glad i'm watching DVD instead of watching it on tv itself. haha.

gonna watch it again. if i have the time. =)

went back to sch just now. yup. follow-up movie night. what else can i say? less than 300 participants, even worse turnout rate than last year. well. it was just purely disappointing. guess i didn't do a good job after all since i was the i'c. i allowed the team to rot and die. ha. is that a new way of learning? i've nv adopted this kinda training until recently. feeling really kinda bad.

got irritated and went home. well. what else can i say? i seriously don't udnerstand why sometimes she has to be so irritated by the things i say. u know, im just speaking really normally like a normal human being. i can be blur sometimes, i could be naggy, but at the very least, i wasnt showing a least bit of attitude and impatience when i talk to ppl whom i considered my group of friends.

guess i was wrong. to always be acting stupid and thinking that thats the best way to communicate with ppl. but i'd been like that ever since like i forgotten when? unless ppl prefer me being annoyed and fierce at all times, i can be if i want to.

oversensitive, call me that. but i've had enough. it's not the first time it's happening you know. the group of ppl whom i considered the closest ever since i left tp, always like to make fun of me. i know, and i seriously don't mind. but i just couldnt stand the sight of ppl feeling irritated by me. it's my problem, i don't know anymore. was rather hurt, everytime. just that i seldom showed it, and still smiled and laughed it off. pretending like an idiot. sometimes i'm just so annoyed.

travelling all the way back to sch, to visit, to check things out. was i being too meddlesome? i don't even know. or should i say nobody was expecting me to go back anyway. i always thought im not needed. well. i should have expected it a year ago after i finally graduated from TP. it's time to let go. let this ppl rot and die, for all i care. if not, wad else could be done if ppl don't appreciate all the hard work done?

for the 3 years in poly. have i not worked hard? have i not been hurt by ppl who refused to learn and no matter how hard i tried, i realised it was j ust a waste of my time? i went thru every single bit of it. if anyone doesn't know, i did. thats precisely now i tell myself its gonna be over, it's enough to just be in sch the hwole time trying to figure out if these kids do appreciate what im trying to bring across for staying on even though i'd been working in real life for almost a year.

whatever la. i seriously have no idea what im blabbering abt. just feeling really upset. it's just... mixed emotions. pissed off? yup, one of it. sigh whatever la okie.

QSS is finally on the move. monday to know the results of the grant. great, im damn excited for it! but too bad, sometimes being too excited will just bring me nowhere, and at the end of the day, to be said to be over-reacting. i guess im wrong to be excited over the wrong things at the wrong time. so forget about it. shall not talk about it again until anyone else brings it up. shall just live my life the way i used to be.

damn sian. sigh.

i hate myself sometimes. for loving to act like an idiot who pretends to not know or feel anything. and just cont to laugh and speak like an idiot.

tomor' saturday. still gotta work. and it's my one and half year anni with jeff. no plans, nothing. i don't know. he'll tell me where are we going tomor. great =) i hope i'll be happier.

nah, time to rest and stop complaining like an idiot again. nights.