A fully-loaded mind

Hello! after 2 weeks, im back alive and well. =)

anyway im alive all the time, i hope. haha. =)

Hmmm. lets see what had happened over the past 2 weeks. oh well, last SAT i went with my colleagues to johor on a day trip. haha. it was a damn tiring day as i woke up at 5am in the morning and got home at like 12am midnight. the itinery was as follows: breakfast, lunch, visit to ostrich farm, visit to fruit farm, dinner, then firefly viewing at river.

haha. cant believe i went for such things huh? i thought the fruit farm was really BORING. so we spent most of the time taking pictures instead and ignoring the tour guide that was busy explaining diff kinds of tropical fruits and their seasons. seriously, who cares?! haha. but the sun was SCORCHING hot. we had to constantly hydrate ourselves as it was really damn hot! haha.
but i bought mangoes back home for daddy. =) good girl right? they're HEAVY man. haha.

well. the food overall was okay only. so nothing much to say about it. just cant believe that normal fishball soup was served as one of the dishes for lunch. i can easily buy it at 2 bucks at fishball stall in spore. i paid 65 bucks for the day trip okay. haha. felt damn lame.

ostrich farm was damn COOl! i fed many ostriches... haha a total of 400 over of them in the farm. the sight was simply maginificent. and scary! haha. placed corns on my hand and they'd directly start picking them up from there. haha damn cute, but scary too, cuz all of them basically were taller than me. i felt so intimidated. haha took damn classic picture of myself being scared by the ostrich. would put it up someday. haha. most fun part of the day.

fireflies. wow. another damn cool sight. to see trees being decorated by the fireflies... and they simply looked like the christmas trees in dec. haha. but my eyes were damn tired aft that as it's kinda straining to find them. haha.

well. that day was like probably a most tiring day of my many days. HAHA.

okies. anyway. i'd been thinking about my future plans. about what im going to be doing if im going to quit in aug this year. yup. i guess i'm more or less set on going to do events. right now trying to find ways to check out the rates if im going to join. haha. isit too early? maybe not, its good to plan early right. haha. but im stressed la. many things to think about, such as if pay'd be much lower, if i could be able to cope with less money, more working hours, busy weekends.. blah blah. sigh!

ASC's week zero orientation is like finally over. thank god man. but the sad thing is, follow-up is not over yet! and it's something that i'm seriously worried and thinking everyday about. sigh. these ppl ah, never let ppl to not worry about them for a second. and it's seriously getting on my nerves as it's less than a week to movie night. sigh. many things cropped up la, but i shall say nothing until problems are resolved and movie night is over. no point. wasting my breath, since im going to be meeting those ppl tomor on a sunday afternoon, something is definitely not right right? cuz i've always been against the fact on meeting on sundays to do work. cuz it absolutely sucks. =( well, we shall see. hopefully it's a short meeting.

oh. this week i watched 2 movies. Definitely maybe with my colleagues, and forbidden kingdom today with jeff. =) both are great shows. i love definitely maybe. it's one of those most complicated love stories that at least contained some suspense to whom the guy eventually ends up with. i liked the twist. haha. it's going to be a romance show that msot girls will like. but they do have a moral to the story right? sometimes the person that u've been with for so long, might not end up being the one that you love the most. im not sure, is marriage like that? thats why i say.. sometimes love alone cant help one survive in life. many other factors involved. and find myself fortunate if jeff is the right one for me. =)

i do love him loads right now, but would i still feel the same way one or 2 years down the road? haha. a realistic qns, yet without a definite answer. weird.

oh well. we spent a great day at vivo together. so sweet! took pictures too. and we had a great chat. havent done that for so so so so so long. =) so happy.

some bride shop caught us unaware and dragged both jeff and i down to listen to their package price for wedding prep. open date, for 10 years. just pay the deposit and we could get great pricing. but hello, we're not even 21. how are we going to start forking out money and say YES, she/he's the one that im going to marry, it's just a matter of time. actually i do agree with jeff that we cant see the future, so who knows if we coudl last that long till we get married one day? i always knew it la, of course, at the very least i do know it's hard to survive a many years courtship before one gets married one day. but when i saw that uncertain expression on his face today, i felt kinda loss of words for awhile. not that im angry, just wonder, why so uncertain? for a moment, i felt really uneasy and worried, and really started wondering if we could last for another few years down the road. sigh. im stupid right. haha but after sometime when i sort out my thoughts, i thought i'm uncertain as well. just that he's expressing what he feels and im not.
haha. im so dumb. but anyway. this whole incident felt really silly. HAHA. why worry so much about whats going to happen in next few years. esp with relationships. madness.

do it when we have money. =)

oh. anyway regarding my photos. i'll find one really free day to upload everythign man. cant be bothered to do so one by one these days. it's damn tiring and time consuming. haha jeff promised to teach me how to make collage and i shall put eveyrthing up at one shot! haha. =)

bleah. i've talked so much crap. hha. OH i don't have pay adjustment. damn sian. and felt unfair, since when is my pay at market rate. i seriously think they're bullshitting with me. thats why, leave this place gracey. this chant remains in my mind all the time HAHA.

alrights. i love my friends. i love jeff. i love my family. i'm giong to slp. gdnight!