emo day

i simply hate wet weather. the rain got everyone cranky.

ppl got moody. ppl felt frustrated. noise started to irritated every part of me. gosh. i was so irritated the whole day.

wanted to go visit grandma when end simualtion today. stupid ppl. so noisy. took damn long for everything to be briefed finish. nothing could go on. dragged all the way until 8pm. sigh. cant visit anymore. why cant ppl just be more disciplined sometimes. i wished i could chase everyone home. pissed me off big time. felt like we had to spoonfeed every single one of them. all so laid back, cant be bothered. damn disappointing. this year's Ols, compared to last year. gosh. gone case. so what if theres volume? no discipline, dun follow instructions, do wadever they want. i dun see in what way are they better.

simon went bonkers today. yeah... blew. cant blame. everything was just so ANNOYing. and frustrating. and felt like, okie this cant go on. yeap. but thank god, we managed to turn the table around at the end of the day. so amazing race simulation wasnt that bad. =)

phew. screamed at all of them today. i guess, i've nv been so loud before. because i could feel my throat burning as i shouted. deb said she has nv heard that kinda volume from me. yeah, guess i really erupted. who wouldnt? with a bunch of ppl who might not even be bothered about how these main ppl like us are dying just because we want to save their time for coming back again. how much log have we done on our own. how much planning had been done and how it felt to be screwing things up. they only know how to play and have fun. how many times instructions had been given on what to do. today, is the third day of simulation. hello. yet, everyone was still lost. i'd go bonkers if i were simon too. ridiculous. it's either we're failures, or they werent even listening. or should i say, no one bothered clarifying things if they did not understand in the first placE?

i was fierce i guess. can u imagine. my last orientation. i had to show my ugliest face to the OLs and Log comm. ppl who would make orientation a blast. so disappointing. discouraging? definitely. sigh. today, my whole mind was my grandma. every time there were like time span not occupied. in the end, i had to be facing ppl who might not even be appreciating of all that were done today, instead of being in the hosp visiting her.

i was really mad. sigh. very tired. perhaps becuase i was angry or somehting. HAHA.

emo day. emo emo emo. wheres leslie!!! the emo king. haha.

im so lame. alrights. time to slp. my brother's rom's tomor. quite excited. cant beleve my brother is getting married. feeling weird. HAHAHAHAHAH. alrights. nights. another tiring day tomor.