Happy New Year to ALL

Happy new year.. i know it's bit late since its already 6 jAn. ha. so lame.

oh well. the year din really start very well for me.. i guess. cuz found out the news that shingo wanted to quit last friday..and havent been feeling well ever since then.. for the past 1 week, things kept happening and everyone was hell busy. my mind was preoccupied with so much stuff.. and i kept thinking what was it that made someone wants to leave the club. the club that i love to be in. yet someone was hurt and wanted to leave. i'd been thinking about it for the whole week, yet until now.. i still couldnt find the ans. yeah, basically i'd been harping on the same old thing over and over again. sigh. and im upset, cuz i couldnt make him stay. we used to be so close. yet now, perhaps, people change.

Im very sad that evreyone's only concerned whether he still wants to stay in the club.. but for me. im worried about him, about his life from now on. he's facing so much problems. yet no one dared to ask whats hapepning. yet, i said i wanted to talk to him over and over again, and i did not until last friday when he said he wanted to leave the club. im so ashamed of myself. i knew unknowingly, little things that we did and said just made him even sadder. though often, we din mean it. but i guess, after much thought.. it's always the things we do when we din mean it hurt the most.

My new year eve and day was a blast though. =) went to gladys house on eve after dinner at jack's place with andrew and adrian. wow. haha we played like DDR the whole entire night. hahahaha from like 11 till 5am like that. my legs din feel like mine after tt. yeah it's damn lame tgo play a game that existed like 6t years ago. but i think it's still fun, cuz it was my first time playing it that night. =p next morning, went back to sch.. but left for home to change and all in the afternoon. met sister and jx they all after i left my house with jeff and we went to buy food for bbq at mr tan's house tghat evening.

it was so fun. hehe. but hmmm apparently little came for the bbq. haa. but its okie.. somedtimes its much better having lesser ppl than hell lot when u cant even talk to anyone. we had little gift exchange too. so cute. after tt, went to bedok to eat roti prata, and played some stupid game at the table. HAAH. our chinese all sucks, i thought mine was good. haha. but anyway, next we went over to sister's house. jeff came later. i was still preparing for the meeting with main comm with bendy in the middle of night over at her house. thats our life. HA. pathetic.

next day everyone's almost all dead. went back to help out with tin cans while ben and i continued to prepare for the meeting. wow. bascially with serious lack of slp.. i used my brain from 11 plus till 5pm that day. cuz the meeting was hell long. but im glad. it was a good session. boasted some confidence and cleared certain misunderstandings. but i know. BENDy ho nearly killed sin ee la. sighhhh that insensitive guy. so many times when he din mean it, yet he hurt ppl the most all the time. =( thank god, i talked to her after tt and she seems to be doing better. im so glad. =)

arts fest's gonna be a blast. a pity i cant be back in school to witness evrythign. i do hope the video makes me feel a little better. haha. and envt, hard core washing of tin cans. becoming thrash can collectors already. haha.

Huijign and rahrah must hang in there yeah? evrything's gonna be fine. sin ee, gowri. everyone's gonna be fine after this. shaun too.

sigh. rather worried. whole club's gonna be busy all the way till end of next next week. im not sure how many can take it. but apparently im half dead. cuz of later's MP evaluation. i havent slpet well for nights. not doing work, just stressed up abt everything else thats happening around me. not again, yet.

broke down and cried like shit on wed night. my confidence in me dropped to the bottom of the valley. it was so sad. sigh.... hard to explain anything now cuz im not really in the right state of mind. woke up at 2am till now. worked from then till 630. im shagged.

and oh gosh. i cant believe deb cried two evenings ago. shes mad. but it's the first time i saw her crying after knowing her for 3 years. stressed huh? yeah. i cried the night before she did. how sad can life be nowadays. but it's a blessing if u have someone to cry with u. knowing that u're not alone. yeah. thank god.