it's so hard to blog these days

It's SO HARD to blog.
When at work, it's always interrupted.
When at hm, I always do not have the energy.
OMG. then when! HAHA.

ASc LTC from 24th - 25th July ended on a good note.
It was miraculous on how the weather turned from bad to good.
my prayers really worked.
I knew that was just a simple prayer, but it worked! Thank god. =)

Programme was filled with activities
Though some are unwanted ones as some activities ended too early thats why we needed to slot things in.

Day started well
However, as the day went, rules became stricter
punctuality was enforced.
Somehow, I started to feel the pressure on being a camp commandant.
As much as you're not willing to be doing certain things, you have to do it. because you're the cc
Towards the night, things got worse.
We had to change the campsite due to infestation of ants at the campsite.
due to mess tin cooking.
be it it's the log ppl's fault, or the campers' fault.
i scolded the entire camp.
in the dark at the basketball court.
imposed strict timeline and expected them to meet it in time.

and so they did.
the unexpected happened.
the unhappy one stood up and spoke to me.
upset over the fact that he felt that this system was too regimental.
in my heart, i thought, come on, what is that compared to wallace's era?
He'd probably die a horrible death back then.
And me?
It's the mildest Grace chan he has ever met.
I knew i had to address the issue in the morning.
and i did.

was rather appalled by the fact that I faced this kinda problem given that its my first time being the head of a camp.
well, lost little slp on it.
but lethargy dragged me to bed at 3am.
woke up earlier to think of what to debrief.
and thank god i was reassured that i was doing fine.
my pillars were there to support
and i knew i'll pull it through.

once debrief was over, planning continued for the next hour or so.
TKB walked around listening to plans and proposals.
I was encouraged by the fact that he did what he was told to do.
the other advisors n kenneth tang as well, no questions, just do what they're told.
I mean.. this kinda support was rare during week 0 last year.
and i was really grateful for that kinda cooperation from them!

on a funny note, a dog peed on the rambutans that kenneth tang bought.
and so, it was wasted and we did not eat them in the end. =p

and yup. camp finally ended on a good note.
and i must say i was pleasantly surprised when i received notes on appreciation and affirmation from campers.
somehow, it felt that they knew the lack of confidence i had and reassured me that i am doing fine.
that was important, and significant in boosting my morale. =)

of course, i would not say we're able to influence the entire 45 participants overnight.
but if over half or 3/4 of the crowd achieved the objectives that were set, it is a success. =)

I slept for 14 hours straight once i reached home!
it's been a 1000 years since i ever had slp like this.
hmmm not even after week 0 this april?

burden's off for now.
no class, no camps, no exams!
now, focus on koolwerkz, and that'll be the best thing i can do!

Thru this camp, I seriously identified my flaws - Cant count money for nuts.
not even with a calculator on hand.
thats bad right? =D
No wonder i'm never getting richer.
and... i will never get any fiercer anymore.
I realised I have toned down so much that, scolding these days is a chore.
and i don't feel like doing it at all.
might sound ironic, but it's the fact.

But i have learnt to generate my thoughts better.
So that i could speak more sense.
theres no longer the rashness in my tone, instead of speaking in spite of anger, i just want to speak right and say the right things.

So yup, time to change my way of handling things.
in order to suit my different personality now.
which i am doing it. =)

had been out everynight.
spent tonnes of money.
think it's time to tone down and go home earlier.
haha!

week 0 meeting for the first time with current com this friday.
JIayou!
start early, end early.
my exams fall on OLTC week AGAIN.
how great is my life!

Missing 2 tutorials during OCp period.
that means the only tutorial i have for 2 subjects.
good luck grace chan!
more to come.

i'm slping! =D