Louayyyy. real LOusy!

mood is terrible now.
many reasons.

1. im damn tired.
havent been slping early for past few nights.. yeah i cant blame anyone i know.. haha.
but.. im damn tired. thank god it's friday tomorrow.

2. PPl-PPL r/s at work serioulsy sucks
not handling it well at all. quite pissed off with the way boss talks to me. one day im just gonna blow and tell him the way he talks just isn't the way.

it's bLOODY hard to live up to his work expectations. now i have to report to him wherever i go.
talking to boss sometimes seriously make me feel damn stupid.
it's not easy catching up with his pace of thinking.
i always try hard to churn out new ideas and apply my own way of donig things.
but very often, it doesnt seem to be the best way after talking to boss abt it.
it's impressive that he always have a better idea than me.
but it doesnt feel good at all.
not that im not willing to learn. it's just the realisation of myself not able to think of such things that gets me really demoralised.
how not to be?
i kept telling myself, it's ok. take it as a learning point.
but when i take a look at his expression, it's filled with displease. Hello.

it's depressing to know that i'd been working so hard for the past few months,
but somehow... it's not getting there. not yet. don't know when it'll ever get there.

challenges are right ahead of me. i need to stay strongggggg.

Just told boss i think i can handle the next plant tour visit to koolwerkz. WOW.
I better do it well because he'll be there for observation. wth.!!!

several sales had been cancelled due to h1n1. tell me it's not frustrating enough.

3. Birthday.
batam trip is officially cancelled.
now we have to declare whenever we go for overseas trip.
especially those countries that are listed under MOH guidelines.
and yEs, sadly indonesia batam is one of them.
and... TP's rule is whoever that goes there must work frm home for 7 days after travelling.
like come on.. where do i ever have the time to be quarantined for 1 whole wk?
2 days of not working in office and running around nearly killed me,
because i have had so much work to clear for the past 2 days right now...
and it's not even done.

the fish thing about this is that... i don't have a bloody replacement for my job.
not being around means many things cant be done..
no sales of ice cream in tp, students who works for me cant get paid,
boss keeps calling and asking all sorts of qns that i cant check or answer offhand,
koolwerkz phonecalls are nonstop as well.
fish lah.

so.. yup. i'm sorry janice and janelle.
i know janice is disappointed and frustrated for having planned so much and yet i called it off in the end.
but.. what can i do.
im DAMN FISHING SIAN as well. hello. birthday has alway sbeen the biggest thing on my mind
spirits are seriously dampened.
and it does not make me feel any better having all sorts of nonsense at work.
whatever.
if i have to stay home and rest on 9th JUly. it shall be.
no point feeling sian and go out and feel more sian.

AHHHHHH.

wah.. and everynight i have to baby sit the little chap in my hse.
it can be quite tiring to keep myself awake for his hyper activity!!
thank god he's damn adorable. if not i'd have just strangled him. HAHA.

alrights. gonna shower. and try to slppp.
tomorrow is big event, distribution of 1500 cups at Ahmad Ibrahim Sec.
how cool!
ice creammmmmm here i come.
im still well and strong! come what may okie. HMPH.

gdnight.