Beautiful Sunday

yawn! it's once again sunday and im home.

slept damn late last night. 2am.
GRRRR. when i was alr on bed at 11 plus 12..
mum refused to let me slp!
yes.. for the 2nd night in a row.
disregarding the fact that i told her im damn tired and i need slp...
and im waking up earlier this morning.
guess i seriously havent been at home. and she missed me.

1st night was talk about dating and getting married issues.
wa lao. i nv thought i'll be talking to my mum about life.
thats like... utterly weird and WEIRD.
she popped into the room and started asking me if i have a bf.
kuku. HAHA.
and then she went on telling me how she and my father met...
and how she had been doing for the 20 years being with my dad..
though worrying about money all the time, they still survived.
and we're all now grown up and doing fine in our lives.
i told her, i think i'll nv get married even if i have a bf. cuz i have no money.
it seems to much to bear to even start a family, to start with, getting bloody house.
and fact is i still have zero savings.. it is quite worrying cuz even if i have, i want to throw it into my studies.
mum snapped and said why do i have to gauge if the guy's gonna be rich.
haha. i was a little taken aback by her reply!
she continued talking about how ppl can live lives even if they are not rich ppl..
as long as both have a stable income and days will be good being happy.
freak. it felt like i was watching random drama about mum talking to their daughters.
HAHA. and yes it happened in reality.

and wad happened last night?
GRR> talked about unhappy stuff.
that had been happening when i havent been around.
sigh. not enough money lah... need to pay this pay that.
brother hasnt been sensible and had been having nonsensical requests..
to ask my dad to fetch him home every night just because he ends work at 10pm.
HELLO. SMRT and buses do not end at 10pm!
why cant he bloody hell make his own way home........
dinner also parents pay.. together with his beloved wife
im seriously getting disgusted with their behaviour.
not like they are contributing alot to my parents right now.
im not contributing alot. but at the very least, i don't take them for granted.
my dad is a taxi driver. not his own employed chauffeur.
oh man. im seriously pissed off.
it just gonna take one or two more events to make me start scolding.
im still trying hard not to be rude, but sometimes some ppl jusit doesnt deserve my respect.
it doesnt just apply to friends, family as well.
my second brother is like struggling at his own finances...
but still nv failed to contribute whenever my parents need it.
this oldest couple just acted indifferent.
earning the most, talk the most and make the most comments... and did th eleast.

sigh. it sucks when i feel so broke.
cant even pass some money to parents.
damn it. freaking sian.
i hate to feel broke in terms of contributing.
gonna dig some money out from savings and pass to them.
no more shopping. thats for sure. =(

alrights. im going to meet janice and tx
HAHA. im running late.
see ya.