All labour shall cease!

lala. Mayday.
Happy labour day.

WOAH. this week hasnt been good AT ALL.
haha. but thank god it's over and im given fri a holiday as a bonus.

had a meeting with boss to discuss my plans for the new year ahead.
things said and heard were good and bad.
good is that my efforts for the past months are paid off with recognition.
and perhaps might result in a slight increment this july when im not supposed to receive any since i missed the appraising period.
but im glad that boss is willing to push for it.
so whether i get it or not, it's secondary. it'll be a bonus anyway.

his words set me thinking.
what do i want to see myself in for the next few years?
studies, yes, thats definite. I have to start one somehow, somewhere.
was given choices of path to take:
1) technical route, all about lab, production plant, and sales.
2) admin and management, all about purchasing, sales, and coordinating of events.

so which one will i take? it's obvious.
but im opened to choices. so shall not decide right here right now.
who knows 1 year down the road, i may not take wad i think it's good for me now.

missed debrief on thursday for week zero team.
well. had to collect cheque. sigh.
many reasons to come as well.
i believe whats needed to be said was said.
what was needed to vent, had been vented.
whether this will put a full stop to everything, im not sure.
and do not wish to think anyway.

had been having too many questions in my head.
haha. it's getting me more retarded each day.
giving me lesser happy things to blog aabout.
it can be rather disturbing.

oh well. be happy, cuz it's MAYDAY!
Met the pharmacy ppl for a bbq just now.
it's really gooooood seeing them once again.
it allowed me to talk abt anything, other than TP and everything.
latest update is swine flu is now on orange alert,
all healthcare personnels have to wear masks! haha.
thank god im no longer working there.

haha. now im back home.
back to TP work, ppl. and Yes QSS on the go.
the next 2 days shall be building nonstop of sandcastle.
inspirtation please come. and im praying for good weather and good sand.

SIgh. the thought of QSS.
demoralising.
do not know how to continue.
do not know how to start this off all over again.
do not knwo whats gonna happen in nov, or even june to speak.
lala. i don't know. it's filled with uncertainties. for the team, for myself.

and yes. i should only entertain those who is willing to spare me time.
tings can be said and done a day before, i always have to wait till the next day.
why should i put you at priority when i'm only an option.
so be it. drill this into my puny brain and i shall wake up from it.
it's getting too tiring.

everything is getting too tiring.
cried this morning when i woke up.
i do not know WHY.
quite retarded.
HAHA. i do not need hidden agendas in me.
lala.

im tired! build build build.
gonna slp.
gdnight.