I need more time

damn tired. it's almost 11pm.
the old me would usually stay up till wee hours.
the me now is just.... CMI.

too many things bothering my mind.
it's just TOO MUCH.
jobwise. theres just too much to do, too much to think, too much to rem.
too many ppl to talk to.

ice cream sales hasnt been too smooth this week.
received 2 complaints in a row.
and of course... this is work-life.
when it's not u who caused the problem, whatever happens, the frontline person gets hit the hardest.
saying sorry seem like a tagline these days.

havent had time to even sit down properly in office.
had been running to and fro koolwerkz, delivery, koolwerkz, tp, koolwerkz.
travelling is killing me big time.
besides the expensive fares, energy is wasted due to travelling.
god. i don't seem to have time to complete my work everyday.

finally told boss that im damn lost right now.
because, theres just too many things to do.
too many requests from ppl, too many.

so tell me... how do i. have the extra energy to settle things that are purely out of emotions..
tell me.. if saying sorry would help, i definitely will.
precisely because i treasure the friendship.
walking along concourse to ask u how are u and stuff like that aint easy for me.
apart from being damn busy, opening that golden mouth of mine aint easy.
but i got snapped, just like a rubberband.
so.. what can i do to make things better?
how on earth, a human, can be so objective? i do not know.

this is seriously thrashing my confidence of even being in the SDT next AY.
perhaps, it's just wrong to even step foot into TP at all.
at least friendships are maintained, and none of this shall happen.

Boss asked, whats my aspiration?
the first thing that came into my mind was,
I want to grow in terms of leadsership and being a servant leader.
but.. who am i to say all that right now.
when i cant even deal with this properly.
i do not know. i just do not have the energy to think properly.

workload's adding on and on.
supposed to write boss a mail to list my daily activities in a typical week.
to monitor my workload.
do not know where to start.

Need to go on leave real soon.
out of spore. out of ppl ppl problems.
out of all these.
at least... for awhile.

-it's more that just words, it's just tears and rain-