was forced to tidy and clear up stuff in my room.
apparently mum had collected everything thats mine in the whole house
and contained them into my room.
ANNOYING.
i usually cant stand mess, unless i don't see them at all. BRR.
threw away SO many things.
of those i cant rem what i threw. haha.
but i did keep all the cards and letters ever written.
and i saw my class photos in sec school!
omg. im near to tears.
tell me how mean have i been a friend to many.
to those few especially who treasured the friendship we shared.
and i chose to walk away for doing things that i like
and expected them to understand.
i simply walked away with the reason, we're different.
sad to say. of the many years of birthdays i had earlier on..
their cards nv failed to come in every year.
i miss u charmaine. though its perhaps too late to say anything right now.
poly days. saw some really cute photos too.
haha. i miss meli. the old one. im not sure if shes still the one now.
im missing deborah khoo.
janelle and janice, im thanking god that we're still in touch.
nostalgic is the word to use right now. BRR.
cancerians are indeed emotional and sentimental creatures. can be a burden at times.
makes my heart feel heavy.
looking back,
i was such a noob when we all first entered poly.
out of nowhere, got dragged by janelle to an asc sub-com interview.
for someone who din even have a proper cca record back in sec sch,
being in a 'studies' club was seriously weird for me.
was a big slacker for cca back in year one.
never ever thought i'd want to be so invovled in the following years.
what changed me? im not even sure. haha.
perhaps just found it rather fun to be running around trying to fix audio things up during wk0
and be station master for stupid game where i first knew wallace lim's existence.
and he was already acting like an ass to play cheat in the game with his CG.
then, gotta know deborah khoo better when we're in our 1st OLTC.
i was an assistant FA, weird huh. and i talked to her while she was being station master for some weird 3 legged soccer game. HAHA.
i stayed back to slack with her while my group went off somewhere else.
how cool! =p
so.. there we went, running for elections.
out of nowhere, i became a bloody VP of the club.
with joanne being for SIP for 2 whole semesters.
thats like telling me, hey, run the club on ur own. i'll give u my moral support.
i've heard comments like hey i think u should just step down, cmi lah. blah blah.
but i decided to give it a try. LIKe, why shd i step down huh.
in the end, it was a whole tiring year, but i've made great friends thru the committee.
like come on, many of us are still in contact right now. azuan, kong, aud, deb, chee leong, zhi wei, jeff, and pardon me if i missed a few. HAHA.
3rd year was the most unexpected one.
like, even till now, i'll ask myself, why did i ever choose to run again.
wallace lim was annoying. deb too, who promised to run tog and went off for oSIP. SIGH.
most tiring and dreadful year ever.
nv felt so down and helpless in terms of being in the club.
whenever i sit down and recall on that eventful year, it's sad to be letting out a sigh.
and i'll think to myself, i wished i've done a better job.
many would ask, i thought that year was damn good. with bendy ho.
we even won AS trophy. week zero rocked.
of course, that was all ppl ever remembered.
the team was immediately broken up after which.
no one remembers anyone.
it's just sad that my initial aim wasnt achieved at end of year..
the part on bonding and creating stronger friendships amongst one another.
it didn't work out. perhaps a few like sis and mic and deb and zw.
the rest? i don't know.
it's perhaps the biggest regret i've left with after leaving TP. haha.
OH WELL. it's over!
now im into my new phase of life. work work work.
and lovely QSS for us to do something we all enjoyed doing.
looking at the juniors who're struggling at week zero right now,
it made me look back and see how different ppl can work.
good or bad, it's all to be different.
i wonder how the next year's batch gonna do the job.
god. i feel old. i've been thru so many batches of main comms. HELLO. haha.
spoke to nadiah. VP.
well. im happy cuz what i hear from her is there the learning process was tough,
but she learnt the most things this year.
through all the rough patches and problems, people grow.
i hope everyone will not find it a chore,
but to have the attitude of learning..
cuz at the end of the day, it's not the results that matters most.
but the people who're doing it. whether they've been learning or not.
NOSTALGIC> OMG!
haha. anyway. time for retarded stuff.
i'd been speaking without going thru my brain.
eug will totally know wad im talking about!
and wanted to go for facial appt.
who knew. retarded 518 took ages to come.
and eug waited with me for that half an hr..
and in the end to have successfully persuaded me in going home instead.
god. and we sat there for so long for nothing!
just talked about horoscopes and personalities of people.
how interesting! HAHA. talked all the way till home. that idiot knows alot abt such things man.
weird. HAHA.
alrights. im going to take sometime to read off my cards and staring at the photos
i've ever developed.
then im going to shower and koon.
for a brand new day tomor. HEE.
didn't do ot today. im loving it. =) gdnight!
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