God is good.

i neeeeed to blog about this.
prayers do work. =)
though im still damn tired right now.
im happy that things happened the way for me today.

i prayed damn hard
that i wont fall today.
that i wont break down and feel like crying.
yes i did not.

cuz my delivery that was in the middle of nowhere was cancelled!
reason being? the teacher din bring enough money to pay me, and din bring a chequebook.
so its postponed to tomor!
like.. omg huh!? yes. but seee, for the weirdest reason..
i was given more time to do my lab.

partner wanted to go on mc today.
thank god once again. cuz she made it back in the afternoon.
i'd probably have died without her around.
though her whines DO annoy me.
nothing can be worst than being in the lab for more than 6 hours a day.

she sat there. whined about everything.
i ran up and down the lab, doing every other thing.
how wonderful. preparing medium is like fighting a battle.
if u're late, u lose the battle.
SIGH. so being anxious got me DAMN tired.
the amt of eye power needed today was indescribly HUGE.

now my eyes are hurting. despite taking off my lenses.
and i know im being dysfunctional, cuz i nearly used contace lens solution to wipe my face.
OMG. thats retarded i KNOW. haha.

grace chan.
u can do it. u just need to manage ur time.
i'd been telling myself this umpteen times over.

head's hurting. popped panadol. had been eating the unhealthiest stuff.

if i could.... i would...
thats my nick on msn.
i just realised it can be used in 1001 scenarios.

if i could NOT do lab, i would.
if i could NOT go for orientation tomor, i would.
if i could take MC for my headache tomor, i would.
if i could knock some sense out of the week zero committee, i would.
if i could give wallace a gd scolding and make sure he even gets it into his head, i would.
if i could simply say and do things that i want, i would.
if i could just say and not think, i would.
if i could just NOT think too much, just act on it, i would.


so many IFs. as if life is SO GOOD to allow us to have the many IFs happening.
too bad, tats life.
wads most impt, is how we live out of it.

If one-man show can do the job, why bother having a team?
it's because thats where leadership skills can be trained and cultivated.
even things like, tolerance, resillence, being tactful, working with ppl u hate, are things that are fundamental in the role of a leader.
whether ppl under you are really learning and getting it,
it really depends on your attitude towards all these.
is this just a job or task to be done? or it's more than just completing the task?

i believe when a leader has already lost the drive to train leaders,
all is lost.
not to mention doing a good project and running a good event.
it's damn impt. at least thats wad i think.

because only with that drive and passion to do things, will drive us to do something.

oh well.
it made me think.
whats the difference btwn being in studies club and qss?
To me, studies club was a place where i learnt to lead, and know how to lead.
and it was definitely the best training ground for anyone who wants to.
QSS is now a place that i can see how far my leadership skills can go.
and a place where i can continue to learn and inspire younger kids to do it as well.

haha. im gay. forever thinking about stuff! i don't really know wad im talking.
all the things i've mentioned above are not linking at all. i'm RANDOM like hell.
orientation tomor, i guess it's good cuz i can take a break and do useless things.

im going to bed. head seriously hurts. BRRRRRRR.
and i am not a typical classed bimbo!!!! it's annoying. HMPH.