whats the difference

okie. i can barely see now cuz i'm without my specs.
shall just type with my magical fingers.

right. had a rather good day today
met sis and mag hor for lunch. =)
met eugene and himbo and talked crap for awhile.
met liwei and sis again for qss prog flow.
lastly i met my beloved peck. it' sbeen the longest since we last talked.

well. though i was talking normally like a bloody chatterbox.
and shes laughing at my stupidity and dissing me whenever i say retarded stuff.
everything seemed normal. but you know it's not exactly the case.
i wonder. why people like to use cement to mend cracks on walls.
it's really.. as though the cracks nv existed.
i'm not sure how effective it would be. time would probably be the one that heals these cracks in our friendship.
but im certainly happy to talk to her agian.
ignoring all the fact abt wad if shes gonna be like that again.
maybe she din mean it. thats what i told myself all over and over again.
alright. i'm quite fan jian. i know.

whats the differnce between having belief and having faith?
or is there not difference at all?
well. HAAH. thats the main focus of our debating topic today. Wallace and i.
we attended some principles of faith class together just now.
wasnt at all intetesting, but it's not bad knowing and listening.
question marks filled his puny brain. i don't like it when ppl like to dwell into such... minor details and get things complicated.
why cant we just keep things simple. have faith, believe. thats it!
but its wallace lim. who loves to make his life difficult. as well as for the people around him.
so be it. my brain was too dead to be continuing arguing with him after awhile.
some will ask, why bother? just ignore. but this idiot has to make me talk.

having a mask on my face now.
doing it for fun and it's for the first time.
bloody. it got into my eye and it hurt damn badly that i had to run to the sink!!!
now its cooling. WEIRD.
at least it smells like strawberry. feel like eating it more than putting it on my face. HAH!

'everyone has the potential to teach you something'
this had been ringing in my brain.

i'm learning it well at my new workplace. =)
happy that im learning. not happy that im slacking.
im so hard to please! i know that.
so guys better stay away from me unless u want to get into some kinda attitude trouble.

i wonder why am i so random ALL the time.
wad kidna character trait is this exactly.

i want to try ALL the flavours of ice cream from koolwerkz SOON!
haha. random again. im going koolwerkz factory for 2 days next week. =)
so excited!
i hope i don't fall into some giant mixer or soemthing. AHHA.

on the side note.
it had been on the back of my mind.
why do people insist on putting on strong front?
i'm not sure. even i do it. i don't even know why.
it's just so hard to allow others to see that weaker side of you.
we're living in sucha community. cant be crying for mummy all the time.

but i do agree we need outlets too.
sigh. its just depressing having emotions suppressed.
i really do hope i can give you a big fat hug sis.
know that i care. i wont say things if i don't know wad to say.

sigh. i need to read more manga and watch more shows to make myself happier.

i love taylor swift.
im seriously in love with her songs, her voice.
such saddening lyrics. though not veyr nice feeling sad. HAHA.
im retarded. slap me.

my wants.
my needs.
my dreams.
what are they? sometimes i get confused btwn these lines.

time for bed.