okie. i'm seriously getting retarded.
i don't know wads with my nick.
but im somehow having some problem with couples filling up paths in shopping centres and choking up mrts.
come on people, go home la. it's late. let the singles come out and have fun especially for a day like this. ANNOYING.
haha.
went out with this guy today.
i mean.. i don't know why i did.
sian. i had that super dreadful feelin towards end of working day.
well anyway. it was a super duper busy day today.
i met my lover for a meeting that lasted 2 and half hours.
i nearly died.
bascially. today was filled with ppl talking.
mark tan talked, sec sch tcher talked, my lover talkedddddd, then that guy talkedddd..
i hope im seriously learning the art of filtering or shutting down.
if u ask me, i totally do not rem things said or heard towards all these ppl.
why do they just have so much things to say???
sigh. im tired i guess.
i hate to walk on the streets with someone thats not my bf.
cuz i do not like to be a couple in other ppls eyes
cuz well, on a day like that, as long u're a girl and hes a guy, u're a couple.
but yeah. i tried my best to smile and be happy and talked nonsense as usual.
but im not exactly happy.
so fast. it's already february.
soon it'll be april. soon it'll be one year since i last had someone.
soon it'll reach that fateful day not worth remembering.
cuz it's about someone not worth remembering.
now it's about someone else.
i hope i get my facts right soon.
i do not wish or want anyone to be playing mary go round with me.
it's not.. funny.. at all.
wallace says im dead. i think i am.
i hope im not though.
praying hard, wishing hard.
thats why i say.. why cant life just simply be a fairytale.
all will be a wonderland.
im mad about ice cream these days.
at work, i think about flavours, how many cups, how much
at home, i think about where to buy ice cream bells and where can i approach to sell ice cream.
brain is clogged.
2 and half hours meeting certainly didnt help to solve the prob.
monday's task list is filled to the brim.
tues meeting and workshop is gonna make me not be in my office stoning.
brr. busy busy busier! YAY.
i think it' retarded to have a day called vday.
i mean.. why must couple be especially nice to each other only on a day like that.
my friend, that guy, said it's just like father's day and mother's day..
but hello, my bf din give birth to me. why should i celebrate?
anniversaries ain't enough?
flowers everywhere, which seriously waste alot of money. i don't mind cactus though. HAHA.
guess im being anal. i shall just let my eyes be clean of such sights tomor.
DONt remind me of anything. i don't wish to remember.
im damn slpy.
radar super weak these days. OH MY.
it's only 11 plus and i feel like i need some energy boost.
siGh. brain power used up. thinking about unnecessary stuff and people. STUPID.
no wallace for service on sunday morning.
i hope i have the willpwoer to make it there myself.
that will mean no late night tomor, cuz i'll nv wake up on time if i do.
alright. i need my bed more than a computer now.
more than anyone else now.
BRRR.
philosophy about rich and not so rich ppl.
main point if you're rich: don't act like a jackass who thinks u own the world
main point if you're not so rich: don't pretend to be rich that u own the world. or the world owed you anything of such.
philosophy about having richer friends than you.
main point: don't ever try to act like them when u're not as rich.
Main point: always take advantage if they willingly let you to. WHY bother, they're hell rich.
last main point: i think 2nd point was a damn bitchy one. but it's a realistic one.
philosophy about criteria of a bf.
main point; don't need to be rich, but cant be DAMN poor that i gotta feed.
main point: better be hardworking if not i'll spank ur ass.
last and most impt point: be sweet even if u're not rich.
philosophy about myself.
main point; pls be happy with what i have.
main point: i earn money, i don't GROW them.
main point: feb's pay coming in hopefully tomor, but 1k will be settled for debts and savings
main point: why am i so bloody poor. im really depressed
main point: i promise i wont allow myself to fall into a shit hole if i can.
main point: a pitless shit hole i mean.
main point: i don't need to be rich. i just need to have enough. for mum.dad.myself.
just received a comment today:
if you remain too contented with everythign you have, you'll nv improve urself.
NOT TRUE. contented with the way things are doesnt mean we don't upgrade ourselves to feel BETTER about the things we're doing. upgrade ur skills, character, but nv ur mentality about money. money is not everythign in life. no. 1 motto. but i agree it's BLOODY impt.
i don't love money. but i need it.
why cant money need me and love me.
brr. gdnight.
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