I need an energizzer

the songs on 95fm apparently sounds annoying.
why cant they just play nicer songs at this point of time.
i need peace but not silence, i need soothing music and not live rockers.

just reached home.
feelnig damn fat.
guess i drank too much water thats enough to kill me.
yeah yeah. my blood vessels are gonna burst due to the amt of water intake.
haha. sparstic.

i drink ALOT of water when im not feeling too good.
i think im gross.
super dysfunctional tonight at dinner.
im sorry folks. i wonder why too.
just feel like crying. so i had to keep drinking to stop tears from coming down.

day started sucky with a talk with boss.
thanks to dearest wallace.
sometimes, it sucks to be kind. cuz it nv pays to be kind.
it's enough.
sometimes, it's just not THAT funny.

yesterday was one, today was two, and wad comes after two?
sigh. i do not like to be seen as someone who slacks and does nothing.
u know. it sounds bad, it feels worse. cuz i AM doing work. tonnes of it.

tso partner seriously doesnt help but give me more work.
i thought shes supposed to help me lighten my load?
nope. in turn, i've to do things for her.
i don'get it. just don't.
but i'll suck it up. until the clouds go away.

i need the blue blue sky. where did the sun go these few days?
it's been cloudy, rainy, and gloomy.
gosh. i need sunlight to survive please.

just a phonecall away.
so near yet so far.
its good that i've no spare time to think aout anything
but that does not mean im not thinking.

feeling drained.

delivery tomor morning, lab in afternoon.
sample taking at koolwerkz on mon morning, followed by delivery, then lab in afternoon.
orientation on tues
lab on wed morning, then orientation.
delivery of freezer to school on thursday, lab and lab.
friday, lab and lab.

packed. orientation saved me from more lab next week.
but im not too keen. i'd rather stay back and do lab.
cuz theres just too much for my partner to do alone.

boss said,
i'm young. but i need to know and PUSH myself to do things.
that meant, please take more initiative.
u just thought i did not.
my whole brain these days is about ice cream.
how to do it, how to sell more, how to deliver, how to make things more efficient..
it's all over,
just because wallace said i did not. it seemed like all my efforts have shown nothing.
f'king sian.

i'm slpeey.
sucky day once agian
lets pray for a better day tomor.

love.