i dislike mondays!

brrr. im seriously bored right now.
cuz i don't have anything pending to complete.
on the other hand, im REALLy lazy to read up info on the files.
cuz basically they're soooo wordy. and sadly, i'd been procrastinating.

procrastination is a scary phenomenon.
and perhaps, its strictly prohibited for wadever i'm doing right now.
but.... i'm just too lazy for a monday!

delivery to sugarloaf (engine sch) was good this morning.
i'm really proud of myself!
as usual, there were some super last min things that cropped up.
but of course, the mighty me resolved it properly. HAHA.

i'm really sleepy. falling asleep every min
and im trying to gulp water like mad so as to keep myself awake.
wallace is on mc today. sigh.
i had lunch with nelson kum. that was so weird!
the 'boss' i used to call around back in school. haha. it was nice catching up though.

the bunch of kids that made ppl worry.
well. they're still having butterflies in their stomach, in their brain, everywhere.
cuz tan kb just refused to reply or talk to them! haha.
well. discipline meeting don't sound good. but it's better than calling them into director's room immediately right..
i guess theres room for negotiation. prob a big scolding and warning.
and hopefully matric card returned on time.
how i wish i could sit in! i wish i could. but don't dare to propose that to tan kb. HAHA.
cuz i think he must be fuming. not as though it's something nice to boast about.

oh well.

i shall not get myself too involved.

Qss. on the ball.
i need to get it started.
the thought of all the mixed feelings we had last june was not very nice.
i seriously wouldnt want to go thru the same old thingy again.
too much to bear, and perhaps, even harder to revert things to its old ways.
so... i'd rather state my expectations. my fears. and my worries.
even before anything is planned or said.
the need to know your level of commitment isnt too much to ask for right?
yes. that is absolutely important. but im sorry, seems like we cant meet an agreement.
just it's just going to be a come and go. not hoping too much is good.

i'm tired.
shouldnt have played so much during weekend.
should have rested mroe.
shouldnt be stressing myself up too much
shouldnt complain too much
shouldnt think and dream too much.

most of the time. the things u dreamt about are not meant to happen.
thats why they're called dreams.
i don't know wads bothering me. or what has gotten into me.
im stopping myself before i fall any deeper or hope for anyting else.

brrr. focus grace chan!
QSS on the go.
WORK WORK WORK on the go!
and yes, upgrading skills too. =)
and when's my pay coming man! sigh. im hitting the rocks.