i love exercising!

haha. on the other hand.
other than the previous post that made me a little pissy.
i went to continue my lessons for cardio sculpt today. =)

wow. im having so much fun in it.
cuz it's just dancing and moving with the music.
u don't have to talk or interact with any human in that room.
=) and i cant help but to keep laughing at myself.

less tired than last week.
even though today's lesosn was a little tougher.
hope it means im getting used to it. cuz im really enjoying it!
looking forward to every wednesday. HAHA.
this makes the middle of the week a little more interesting than usual.

and....
i din mean to get so upset.
but get what i mean after hearing me out.
perhaps patience for me is running out.
so i've decided to just smile and get away with stuff.
poker face u may have, but a smiling face is my forte.

not saying does not mean im fine.
saying it out doesnt mean im not over it.
and ranting does not necessarily mean im just complaining.
cuz i classify complaining as something tolerable and able to get by after perhaps overnight.
but confiding means so much more to me.
im sorry.
enough burden on your shoulders. i shall give u a pat and say jiayou.

and...
to my two other girl friends.
hello. is meeting up seriously so difficult?
im getting less confident of this kinda friendship as time goes on.
trying ways to meet up.
always cannot make it, see how, or bringing ur bfs along without asking me.
i had been a big person. saying, it's okie la. next time then...
so when's the next time?
i'll fly when u needed me.
but now im not sure if u will come to me if i ever just needed a confidant.
to even just meet for dinner or a lunch date.
one day. i'll stop asking.
i dont have the biggest heart. just a bigger heart.
but it's shrinking once again.
so much things to say. yet i have to beg for someone to hear me out.
it can be quite tiring.

thank god.
i've my pharmacy humans cheering me up with their nonsense everyday.
and i've learnt quite well not to bring emotions into work.
xmas presents, dinnering...
everything just sounds damn fun. =)
but... i know i don't have much time to see them anymore.
cuz soon, im leaving.
feeling reeeaaallllyyy bad that im leaving yet i know i've to.
this had been on my mind for the longest time.
but once again. i can only type it here. or just swallow it.
HAHA.
cuz i guess it's no big deal sounding to anyone.

anyways. i don't really know wad im talking about.
need to slp. working still tomor. Brrrrrr.
gdnight.