hello Weekend!

Say a BIG hi to weekend.
thank god.
it's finally friday.
though my weekends are like packed, im glad.

I'm tired! of course.. it's like 1240am.
im feeling Soooo muc hbetter today.
no more fever, no more headache.
i wish i've more time. another 12 hours more before the day ends.

so much things to do
so much things to think about.
so much things on my mind.
my life, my work, my interview, my trip, ppl's bdaes, ppl's emotions.
gosh.
once again, it's overwhelming.
guess thats why my brain temp decided to go haywire.

had been thinking.
how do i really feel?
do i want it, or don't want it.
i simply cant make up my mind...
and i wish i could forgive and forget.
i wish i could do nothing, think of nothing.
i wish i could be better than wad i think i am right now.
i wish.. some things nv happened in my life.
and...
now we all know. loving one is hard.
especially when the other is totally unappreciative of life.
you reap what you sow.
i guess, thats reality of life.

interview.
it's next monday in tp.
how do i go on from here?
i need proper outfit, proper shoes.
and a proper script.
having no idea how to start can be really head-cracking
im stressed. grace chan sucks whenever she has to do something formal.
how about informal? just let me talk. im sure im up to it. don't ask me anything!.
haha. stupid, i noe. bleah.

my trip.
genting. wads there to prepare?
i wish i could i expect more.
not exactly to excited other than spending more time with my parents.
well. i don't gamble.
don't like the fact that my parents gamble.
so why am i going? just to accomapny them.
being a sweet daughter. can be really difficult sometimes.
but im sure i'll enjoy time with them.
but im sure i wont enjoy much of genting.
so i guess. HAHA. company matters more.

next up.
met wallace and mag hor for a movie!!
yes... OMG. wad a combi.
and wad a show.. james BONd.
wallace slept, and i was desperately trying to keep awake.
while mag hor was so engrossed in the show that she din say a word during the movie.
and threw us tonnesss of qns regarding the first episode of james bond just before this movie.
great. as though we'll remember. HAHA.
thats why i said.. FUNNY combi.

after dinner and before the movie.
we went to shop for my formal wear.
wallace was being a total idiot shouting outside the dressing room while i was trying clothes.
and i replied. thinking that he's just standing outsde the door.
in the end. when the door was opened, u see tonnes of ppl staring hard at us.
great wallce, not another stunt.
HAHA. he simply makes me laugh sometimes.
i hope hes feeling better with our presence.
not fine, but at least better.
i cant do much with my physical and mental mind now. not emotions of course.
cant handle adults affair.

but hEY.
lecturers no longer have 48 days of annual leave, but 21 days!
HAHA! great news. at least life is a little fairer now. HAHAHA.
oops sorry to my lecturer friends. bOO. =))

And. wonderful chee leong just called me on the phone.
off guard. but was a great chat.
hope all goes fine for him.
well.. havent talked for the longest time...
and ppl change. so did we.
thinking and perceptions are different.
but we still are good friends, aren't we? =)
enjoy life, thats the most imptthing right now.
for ppl our age.

but of course.
there are ppl our age working their ass out.
studying, working hard, striving hard.
i salute these ppl. and with due respect. =)
and of course, giving my best support.
all the way, all the way.

BOO.
im going to bed.
if not, think i'll die at work tomor.
HEE. lovely.

the night is quiet.
but all feels good.
without any ppl talking or shouting at me
without ppl telling me if they die it's my responsibility though all i do is pass them wad they should bloody eat to keep them well and alive.
without ppl nagging into my ears.
and yes, no sound at all.
peace.

close my eyes.
enjoy.
and KOON.
nights. =) long entry.