she was adopted by this family who also has a dog at home. spent a week with them and they brought her to the vet. thus the microchip number was found, and they managed to contact me after making a call to AVA.
thank god.
what else can i complain abt life? when God has returned me something that i've lost for neearly a week.. i was overjoyed. a feeling that couldnt be described with words. all i said for the first fifteen min after a phonecall from that kind guy, was thank god probably nearly 50 times. which i know it's nv enough.
there'd been so many ups and downs recently, which my mood followed thru the events that followed one after another. sigh. was really acting like an idiot being all down and low-spirited. i knew i was acting like one, but just didn't care. cuz too tired to be bothered. and things at home just didn't make things better. mum, 2 bros and wife had conflicts, sparked off by the loss of dog. sigh. it's depressing to be home watching mummy crying and sobbing alone in room for more than half an hr.. sigh. just don't want to get reminded!!! =(
right now. with my dog back. well i'm obviously feeling better, happier. but i know there're more to just wad this coudl be done. haha. i'm lame i know. i only know, it's time to organise my life back into shape.
had my appraisal done with my supervisor on monday morning. well. i got a grade C. think it's a terrible rating... with everyting on target, other than the fact that i wasn't 'proactive' enough from last year till this year mar.. back in outpatient pharmacy that is. yup. she mentioned i was not very friendly, and didnt have the initiative to help others.. such and such. well, i DO agree to certain extent that i wasnt very interested in working there anyway, so why would i bother socialising. and most impt point, im not exactly very sociable. unless u really know me well enough to a certain extent. HAHA.
well. C gave me bad bonus. though it's not so bad and im contented with wad i've gt since it's still money. my increment for salary is gonna suck. HA. cool huh. and she noted down on the PAPER that i do let my emotions from personal life affect my working attitude. why would anyone in a right mind, or rather being kind enough, to put this stupid statement in my appraisal? that'd seriously make me look bad. and how much does she knoW?????? wadever la. i just don't like the fact that ppl pass remarks without knowing anything personally.
and yup. zw is in crap shape. so does peck. zw.. sigh. im sorry, im a bad friend. but sometimes i need my own breathing space so i don't contact him at all for a few days. its just suffocating these days with everything else added tog. guess it's gonna take a really long time to see the same old guy again. sigh. depressing. that made me wonder, how did i even handle my breakup? haha. wonderful. maybe until now, i'm not over it yet. just not showing it. perhaps, i'm the pathetic one. ha. had been reflecting.
peck. i don't know wad to say. don't know wad to ask. i don't know anything abt her. i thoght i knew. but in fact, i know nuts. feeling very frustrated sometimes, cuz it's really hard to be nice and comforting when i don't even know wad the heck is going on in her life, and shes not telling me anything at all. this is worse than having PBL sessions. at least there're answers to those qns sometimes. forher, it leads to nowhere.
im busy. damn busy.
packed all the way till friday night. and sat morning till mon - BINTAN here i come! with wallace and gang, with deborah!!! =) superbly excited.
and mon to wed, chalet with my beloved girls. and.. so on and so on...
i miss sister!!!! hope she's back really SOON.
going on 1 week's leave simply makes me feel happy at work. cuz i cant wait to get off this crappy work. and yup, all ready to tender my letter once i get lobang in late july and my bonus. now im' just stuck in cleaning almost eeyrthing there as thought im hired to do PT jobs, and sub in as a cleaner. damn sian. am i a cleaner or something? sometimes, it's more than just doing housekeeping u know. i don't know why they have cleaners for. speechless man. sigh. tiring.
boss is going on maternity leave REAL soon. when im gone, shes gone. when im back, shes still on leave. YAY. =)
so i may not even see her when im off ttsh. goodbye. =)
iwant to be better. i don't want my life to go wasted like that. thats grace chan spirit right?! HMPH. yes, everything's going to be fine. so it does to those that are going thru hard times too. i want to be stronger. strong enough to be pillars for others. for my mum.
lecture tomor. =( gotta slp. gdnight!
Thank God.
You've not given up on me.
Thanks for showing that You're still ard.
I'm sorry for all i've done. can nv say enough.
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