im hungry

wow. had a tiring week. this week had been crazily busy. i worked yesterday at the emergency pharmacy. and the number of patients were just overwhelming. made me so tired that once i reached home, i fell aslp on my bed. haha. disgusting yes i know.

well. how have my life been? hmmm had been home the whole week, except on friday when i watched movie with jeff, resident evil. haha. it seriously wasnt a suitable show for me after a long tiring day as it got me really tensed up during the show. next time we should just watch comedies. haha.

hmmm. havent been talking much when i get home these days. cuz i don't see anyone at home. life is getting really boring. sigh. mum and bro seemed so damn busy. i don't even get to see them. cuz they're only back when i'm deep aslp in the middle of the night. ha. getting lonely huh.

had been thinking alot these few days. started having mood swings and ap again. haha. it's like a vicious cycle. i can be happy for a period of time, afterwhich it feels as though im falling into depression. the feeling is really very frustrating.

recently my supervisor also brought up the option that i could choose to be on rotating shift. whereby i'll no longer be working along normal office hours. instead i'll have the chance to rotate between the normal pharmacy, and the AnE pharmacy. sometimes i'll have to work alone there from night time till morning. and before i officially start work there, i'll have to undergo training for 3 months, at inpatient to learn more about medicines and blah blah. well. i wasnt sure if i'll want to take it up. definitely, the pay is going to rise by a few hundred bucks. but i've heard alot about the rotating shift. about the stress that i'll go thru, things im gonna handle.. blah blah. they scare me. worst of all, i may have to work on weekends too. and my offdays would be one of the weekdays whereby everyone is schooling or working.

initially i thought it wouldnt be a very bad idea. because afterall, i did express my view about the routine job i'm having right now at the pharmacy. it's getting really boring. and if this goes on, i'll probably leave by end july next year. i actually din expect myself to be that bold to tell her that. haha. she asked me to go back and think about this option, and also think about which area of work would i like to do. like leadership? management? haha. i like both. i just dislike wad im doing now. and yes, i hate paperwork as well. it's damn annoying. i told her that too.

well. she said i should have told her all that. like hello, like i was given a chance to. we're not that close to talk about things i dislike about the workflow here. haha. but thank god she spoke to me. at least my views are heard. but right now im stuck in the dilemma of whether i would want to do rotating shift.

sigh. mum told me not to. cuz it's not safe to be alone handling drug addicts at the AnE side at night. like though i don't think anything can happen. im just worried i cant handle them and do the right things.

haha. u know wad. it feels exactly the same when i was thinking if i wanted to run the club a few years back when we're still schooling and i was a subcomm. im not sure of what i want in life. after the goal to run the club and out of sch, i don't know wad i want next in life. HAHA.

i should reply asap. but i think i'll take longer time to do so.

im hungry. cookking boiled eggs now! haha. i cant wait for them to get cooked cuz im so hungry in the middle of the day.

oh oh oh. hehe. so much thigns to think about. myabe thats why i'd been moody. bleah. club things still bother me. though i din say and din bother voicing it out. it's getting annoying. i wish i had nv heard anything about anyone, so i'd think everything is well and good.

but too bad. i know. haha.

alrights. back to my anime. =) cya.