Birthday craze!

wow. everyone's having bdae celebrations these few days huh. or rather, wa lao their bdaes are like.. so close to each other. haha.

meli's yesterday. wallace's one, i think it's today. and jeremy's tomor. i've another friend's having bdae tomor too. and another week later it's bendy ho's bdae. cool stuff. like i said, azuan's one was just last weekend. hahaha. lame la these ppl. =p

anyway. had a grumpy week i guess. still dreading the fact that i had to work till 630 and work from opening to closing for today (sat). though the hours were not long, but wa lao, they felt like the longest ever. so hard to pass by. but well. these free time did give me some chances to go read up on some drugs. now im trying to learn on dosing and stuff. so probably i would bring along a notebook from next week onwards. time to jot down notes to help myself. =) thats grace chan. hehe.

slept for whole afternoon and met wallace, deb, sister, bendy, azuan and shuhui for dinner. jeff had to join his friends to celebrate their bdaes too. had a surprise bdae song from the crew where we ate. nyny. wa lao. they kinda made it embarrassing. HAHA. so funny. oh well, i guess that fitted perfectly for a 30 year old guy. HAHAHA. wallace is an old man now. BLEAH. after that, we went to get some drinks. oh well. bendy ho freaking couldnt drink. started speaking in nonsensical manner after only drinking some beer. damn gay. huilin joined us after that. haha. we had a nice chat as a whole la.

well. wallace did pop the qns for me for being the mentor. i gave a straight no. i thought that would probably make him feel disappointed. but.. guess thats like the best answer that i could give right now. not in the right situation i guess. perhaps it's the stress im having at work. hard to make ppl understand. haha. but it really sucks to feel like i know nothing there. sighhh. kinda depressed sometimes. ppl of the same batch, same age, know much more than me. how can i not feel inferior? ayesss! =( but anyways, i promised sister i would be back in the later semester when bendy and mic are gone. i will la. haha just wait tillthen. =)

well. Deb just passed to me a book that Mr tan got for me as a token of appreciation. I hate to say this, but it got me rather emo. =( hahaha. im mad la. he thanked me for my countless effort and time spent on the club. haha. i thought to myself, really, so what if time and effort was spent. were ppl receptive? haha. i don't know. but ayes, guess i would never regret wad i've committed for so far. just that... when we gain something, we lose some. and perhaps i've lost some really precious things. And the book was called 'Dealing with Difficult People'. OMG! how could he not make me think! thinking back was kinda gross actually. cuz there were some parts of the past, i feel i would never want to be reminded of. yeah.. it's damn hard to deal with such ppl. damn tiring, and it trained up my patience. haha. and deb told me, perhaps mr tan did know wad was going on all along. yeah, maybe. who knows. then that made me feel better. at the very least.

oh well. talking aboiut the club. joined in their first formal meeting last night. haha. quite interesting. but i was too tired to focus much. the posiitions voted for them, well, i would say that weren't wad we're planning for. Argh. suck it up la. we should just take it in our stride. =) haha. and i do hope the so called mentors now would speak up for wads best for the club. yeah.. i guess respecting the present Ps is impt. but we always have to be the bad guys if we're called MEntors. well. we shall see. hahaha. rock on la. anyways, told the main comms about the results for the club. yes.. we did not win the best club award this year. i had to say it. and had to see the faces on everyone. it was depressing. i held back my tears. HAHA. yeah i did. strong girl right. nowadays, other than things for jeff la as usual, i wont really cry anymore. even if im really sad. masked. haha. thank god. they were positive. lets all work harder this year. =) Bendy should feel better to know that they're taking it better than him.
BLEAH. hahaha. he better not read this. HAHA.

AHhh~~~ Emo days come again. sigh. deb's going aust. zw's going ns next thurs. everyone's leaving. for own desitination and own dreams. i hate the feelin of parting. it just sucks totally. sigh. time to grow up grace chan. who doesnt move on. the world doesnt wait. i moved on to hosp. to work. now their turn. so actually i did it first. haha. im gay. but it just sucks la. sigh sadness. but zhiwei told me. all it matters is our friendship remains. yeah. im glad. but i admit its hard to maintain. sighhh. we used to work for one goal, all had one thign in mind, one thing that linked us altogether. but now, it's gone. ha.... of cuz, that would always be the thing at the back of our mind.. but we wont be as forthcoming anymore. i loved this ppl. i really do. =(

alrights. head spinning. time to slp! gdnight