Butterflies in my Stomach

Ayes. had been having stomachache since last night. and every now and then... it's still hurting. I vomited a little bit too. I really hope it's not gastric flu or any sort of food poisoning. migraine's coming back too. hai. why man. feeling damn weak right now.

sigh. went back to sch for the teach session today. oh well. perhaps it'd be better if there was never sucha session. felt that i've wasted my time anyway. it didn't seem that anyone bothered anyway. why do people always make one feel like evrything is redundant.

well. it's like the last time i'm ever coming back to sch to see them regarding club anyway. cuz from tomor night onwards.. i'll be working at the pushcart in bugis. then for the following week as well. and the weeks and weeks after that would be working already i suppose. so too bad. somehow i just felt that... whether i'm around or not. perhaps it doesnt matter to anyone afterall. as much as i wanted to be there, finding it so hard to move on. but at the end of the day. it seemed like only me who wanted to tag along all the while. sucky feeling i guess.

just received news this afternoon. that i'm to attend tan tock seng hosp interview for pharm tech on monday morning at 9am. in formal wear, together with my port folios and all. wa lao. im so nervous la. formal interview eh. where the heck am i going to find formal clothes anyway. and i must start researching on the hospital and all. this is going to be the most scary experience for me. ahhh. new phase of life. i feel like a little baby trying to find my way in this vast community. and it sucks that it has to be that early. cuz my voice is so gonna be damn low la, and i'll sound like a guy and look as though im so unenthu and cant be bothered. sucks man. ahhh.

gonna find my way there too. how to la. i do hope jeff is not working that early in the morning. so perhaps he can bring me there. ahhh. but oh well. all these always depend on his schedule. sigh.

God please bless me. i need this job. whatever it is. i must pass this interview. cuz i need the money. badly. alrights. shall do my research tomor ba. getting damn sleepy after eating that anti-giddy and vomiting medicine.

nights. sadness and anxiety are like filling me bit by bit.