A tinge of Sweetness

=) yup. went to watch movie with jeffrey alone. though we watched some lame gorrie show. haha it made me realise that jeffrey's so cute! hahaha. gay too. wa lao. at some parts right, he actually closed his eyes and lowered his head la~~~~ haha so funny. when i asked him something, he replied, isit? so when i turn over and look at him, gosh, he was all down to the floor. HAHAHA. havent seen that part of him before. so cute. hahaha.

right after tt, he went to work already. though it was a short time we were together, it had been damn long since we last talked so normally without any hostility. i enjoyed the peace being with him like that. guess being in week zero together is really hard huh. becasue we both don't like each other's working pattern. conflicts. =)

oh. and there was this girl from his workplace that seemed to be interested in him la. whole day msg him. so annoying can. i would love to show up at the restaurant one day when shes there. Ha HA..... =)

sigh. many things clouding my brain recently. im rather tired after all these straining. my aunty flew to korea this morning to work. shes gonna be back only a month later. so every sunday i'll go to my grandma's hse and help her pack her daily medicine. so there i went today. to find out that my mum was there too... haha. because the maid Lona forgot to cook soup.. and my grandma threw her temper, whole face turned red and just sat down there. until she got scared then she called my mum for help, worrying that my grandma has high blood pressure. so my cute mummy RAN all the way from my hse to hers, forgetting her keys and wallet. so i had to bring extra keys for her when i went there. yupppp.. grandma was angry because i was going over for dinner, she was worried that i had nothing nice to eat. poor Lona.

but oh well. my gram's temper hasnt been good lately la.. wad to do.. kept going in and out of hosp. i can totlaly understand how she feels. headstrong, stubborn, always independent.. now sshe even has to be bathed with the help of my mum everyday. cant go out at all since she couldnt walk. whenever i think about this.. i feel so sad. it sucks to grow old i guess. and heard from the maid that my grandma cried when she saw my aunty's clothes today. guess she misses her like mad.

poor thing. whenever i think about it, i totally dun feel like going back for week zero. cuz perhaps, i should stay home more often to accompany her. she looked so sad today. i wonder how the one month's goning to pass for everyone. cuz my parents will have to go over in the morning, while my eldest brother will be slping over at night. tiring period for my whole family. i pray for our well being.

week zero. counting down to be in one day's time. my last project. ahhhh. sadness. officially off from school. wonder if anyone will miss me huh. cuz i miss so many ppl. and late nights being stuck in school, with wallace lim that lameshit, and when ppl are falling aslp. the stayovers. chalets. movies. bubble tea sessions. slacking during break and lunch. omg. emo again. AHhhhh. when will this ever end. oh my god. im so sad. =( hai.. always act as though im damn tough. when im actually crying all the time. so lameeeeee.

talked to deb last night. she's also leaving to study in july. now rene rene, Janice, and deb. all leaving. sigh... im so sad. time for everyone to be separated to work for our own living and future. this is so saddening. i wish i'd leave too. but i dun have the money. sigh. life sucks. stuck at this crossroad not knowing where to go. work? yeah, i will. i have to. wad other choices do i have?

sigh. time to get ready everything else for tomor. hehe. nights!