Sigh. tried my best to sleep since 2 plus. it's like nearly 4 now. im still wide awake. was finally gonna be asleep when the heavy downpour came by and woke me up to close the windows and all. and of cuz... to pacify my terrified dog during sucha weather.
so right now. im sitting in front of the computer in my living room. sigh. life kinda suck huh...
kept thinking about the things we said to each other. the accusations, the hurting words. sigh. whats the point of fighting. i no longer find the purpose in it anymore.
jeff was so nice to me. flashbacks of eveyrthing just kept coming back to my mind. why did things turn out like this? people change? or perhaps, it's just me.
as much as i din want everything to turn out like wad it was for me a year plus ago. it seem to be happening right now. thats why i say... perhaps it's just me. that sucky period just never got out of my life and my mind. it seemed ot be haunting me forever.
i'm sorry. i did try. but it just kept coming back to me. when i run away from it, it just kept chasing after me. it's my irresponsible and selfish way of getting into a new r/s before i could get this out of my life. perhaps it's really my fault, that evyrehting else is happening.
alrights. conclusion: it's just me.
No comments:
Post a Comment