Monday Blues

it's like... 445am in the morning. i slept at 6pm in the afternoon yesterday and found myself waking up at 130. and had been working on the writeups for the significant projects of the year ever since then. ahhh, as usual. whenever it comes to the night time, miss gracey will start becoming emo again. haha. when will this ever end. it feels like it's gonna take forever. and also feel like i just broke up with someone. of cuz NOT jeffrey. he's still my dearest. haha.

well. before i move on to my emo parts. woke up early in the morning on sunday to go for the qing ming thingy with my family. went to my great grandmother's house, and yup, once again, missed her presence so much. my great aunt, as usual hugged me damn tightly and nagged that i havent been there for so long. went to the place where the ashes were placed. my eyes were being tortured once again, was tearing non stop. thank god this time round we ended things quite fast and went back after that. had lunch over there, and then i went out with my cousin. yes my cousin. my closest cousin since young. havent met her for so long.. so she asked me to go shopping in bugis since we're near.
ho ho ho. i din know shes been attached to this ACJC guy since like god knows when. about one year ago? i was rather surprised. but happy that shes growing up too. =) we talked about our bfs and went on shopping together, looking for cheap stuff here and there, tried out clothes too. haha in the end, i bought a pair of heels for like 15 bucks. damn cheap. and the thing was, haha i din bring my wallet out yesterday. mummy gave me 20 bucks before i left the place with my cousin. haha. thank god =) bonus for me. havent shopped for really long. it was rather fun shopping with her though. =)
we walked for like hours... then went home at 5 in the end. yawn. i was so tired. cuz i slept at 3 last night crying. HAHAHA as usual la. emo girl. im damn gay sometimes.

Oh. and Mr jeffrey was having some fun msging this female colleague of his. i sounded funny huh. oh well. not another time to get jealous over such stupid things can? im not jealous. just mad that he thought i was trying to be funny when i showed that i din like the fact that he was msging that girl. oh well. since he cant be bothered. i shall not bother too. he told me he wont msg her again that time. oh well. hurhurhur.

he's enlisting only on 26th october. wad a long way to go. guess it'd be even harder for me to adapt to the change of him entering army by then. sigh. one year anni. so lame.

was talking to deb and huijing online earlier on. thanks to them that i was able to finish up my stuff. read sisters blog, and linked on to rahrah and leslie's blogs. haa.. all sounded sad. oh well. im preparing a little card for each of them. planning to pass it to them on friday night itself. i hope these cards wont be too emo. haha. one thing that im very happy about, that is, the club did make a difference in ppl's lives.

remember why i wanted to join to club again? thats because i believed we could touch ppl's lives and make a difference to the next generation. that they'll know that life is not just about studying, but many things else. and i believe this time round, with everyone's heart and soul put into week zero, the freshmen felt it. i saw it on all of their faces. not only the freshmen. i saw it on the club member's faces, the ols, wallace, maghor, mr tan, mr bendy ho, mic and many more. and im sure, on my own face, i showed the same expression too.

that was the cool thing. and as i was browsing thru some of the photos taken for other projects earlier on.. like LTC, Blood drive, arts fest and more.. i saw the same expression on many faces. that is, they felt it. that im happy enough already.

friday is movie night. im asking all the past year main comms, as well as this year's one to try to make it. hope to see them one last time before i officially step out of TP campus. i really hope i wouldnt cry.

going back to school later. i guess i should catch some slp. it's 5 now. lemme go watch naruto for an hour. then i'll take a nap before i go jeff's house to wake him up.

would anyone miss me when im gone? ha.. i hope i've managed to leave my smiles, my rantings, my screams, my complaints, and my tears back there.

naruto! here i come. ho ho ho. =)