The meaning of Significance

had a rather bad day for a start i guess. jeff came to send me to work this morning. I thought everything would have been fine afterr a night, but apparnetly it did not get any better. the moment i went down and met him, talked to him, he ignored me. went on to the bus, the frist thing he said after a fine 10 to 15 min of silence was that he's angry with me over what happened last night. hai.... wad a morning. thats bascially one of the few sentences he said. yet the most impactful.

angry over? over the fact that i spoke to shah and sister on msn, instead of him who was beside me all the while. i admit, last night, i was quite in a world of my own. But i din mean anything by keeping anything about how i felt from him. it's just. weird to be telling him how i feel whe nit's about abonther guy. seriously ask any girl, they'd not tell. cuz it's always better to speak to the girls about such things. thi sis so compllicated and i dun think i should be saying anymore. next, he felt that he's insignificant and the r/s basically meant nothing to me cuz of the things i said. well.... i do speak without thinking sometimes, esp when im angry. but i guess, i may have said rather hurting words this morning and last night. but still, i cant believe he's doubting me about the imptance of this r/s to me, of him to me. im sad la. sighhhhhhhhh. suddenly made me feel that, whatever efforts i've put in for this meant nothing just cuz of the few words that i said. words can kill huh? probably it can make or break a r/s.

sigh. i talked nonstop when i met sister and jx they all over at tamp just now. guess it was a waay to let out my steam and stop mysself from thinking abouit wad he said. whenevr i stop talking, those words just kept coming back to me.

anyway enough about that. zhiwei's back! he gave me this little jar with a little note inside. how sweet. Jx's so happy to see him back. how i wish jeff was there though. =( the walk in the new KIEA was not bad, and the dinner was not a bad one too. =) made me little happier for the night. wallace called too, talked to him for awhile. =) and my colleagues from hosp actually gave me a little chrsitmas present which is a mug and a little santa claus lollipop! so sweet. i felt warm in that little room of theirs cuz they're just so friendly to each other. it was a gift exchanging sessiobn, though we're not involved la. =p


Well, at Ikea, we found this chair that cost $8.95 thats named after JEFF. haha. so cutee. so i told them to take a pic with it so that i could put it here. apparently... all we could see here, is the stupid tag. HAHA. i hope it's big enough to be seen! look at my eyebags. im gone.

ANd apparently Sister and I saw these straw made stuff which lookedlike a hat and ESPlanade or a durian. so we took a pic with it! so cute. =)

Yeah. gotten some new recipe from one of the kind aunty over at work, make something without using oven. maybe i should give it a try this christmas. haha. =) but i wonder if i ever have the time to make it la. thats another thing.

yay. christmas's coming. meeting zhiweei they all on sat to sing song, spend the night together, sunday is church service with cell group, and monday christmas party at charmaine's house! =) so excited. hopefully all would be nicely planned. and tues will be seeing deb and wallace they all. wa, i think i going to die or something. hopefully my mama lets me stay over. i siincerely hope so cuz it's working day. =*(

alright. im tired. going to slp. gdniight. =(

How am i going to make u feel that you do mean something to me?