Whats wrong?

yup. went back to sch after work today to paint the tee shits. got myself stained with paint all over my hands, my knees and my feet. damn lame.

oh. we even stained wallace's video cam case!!!! thank god we managed to salvage it and found out abt it on time. =) if not wallace would screw us man. haha. sherrilyn, derrick and chenghar were damn nice. i like them and i konw my part for arts fest.. would be Great with their help. =)

still waiting for arts fest approval over from wallace's side. this is sooooooo worrying. everyday this line would appear on my blog. i guess.

sigh. imagine a night when jeff and i din talk at all, all the way from our way to have dinner, then all the way till i reached home. im upset. cuz i felt ignored, and i duno wads wrong exactly. probably he should have told me at least i would feel better now.

what is it about being jealous? or insecure i guess. so this is the kind of security im giving to him? im not sure. perhaps i din even realise it. but i just have to say, ever since duno when, i have been a girl like that. who plays around with my close friends, whether they are guys or girls. im not sure. did i grow up the wrong way? if i really have to, i would try to change, but that wouldnt be me anymore, right? by keeping quiet all the way, im not sure, was he doubting me? or was he just being pure unhappy about wad hpapened. somehow, i felt that he was doubting me. trust is so impt here isn't it?

if theres no trust, theres nothing. i duno la. this is getting me sad. thought i could have fared better in his eyes. perha[s im just like wad others think i am. it's hard being myself osmeitmes. i wonder if its right.

i duno wad im talking aboiut. cuz im half dead. and sad. gdnight.