BOOOO.


woah. it's monday. yesterday was a killer i guess. i reached home at like in the morning 4 plus after work., and a movie that i promised andrew they all go watch. watched World trade centre. a rather moving show i should say, it made me cry.. haha. =p but anyways i was damn tired la. the accumulated week of work and all.. made me slp all the way from 6am to 430pm on sunday. gosh. i wasted so much time. sigh. din attend church again. i wonder, when am i going back there again. no motivation. no faith. im disappointed with myself. i wish i could go back to the old gracey, who left everything to her dearest God to tell her wad to do. rather than being stuck here, trying to take control, but not accomplishing anything in her life. im feeling so ashamed to get back to chruch after disappearing for like nearly 2 months? im not sure. but it feels really long.

right now im in sch library. woah i love sch's computer. i hate my house comp. feel like smashing it whenever i use it and it gets hanged. OHH. and 430pm i woke up and started rushing my assignment online. gosh. the comp hanged at the 9th qns. after i spent like 1 half hrs completing them, i was so clsoe to the 10th! i cried la. so stressed. cuz i had to be at work at 7pm yesterday initially. and how could i stand having all my hard work being HANGED on the comp. thank God, i know He's still watching over me, the comp came back in action after like 15 - half n hr of me not even daring to restart it. then rushed rushed rushed.... until like 815? i took a cab down to work la. i wonder how much does my pay help to contribute to the damn cab fare. i just felt bad for being late at work and th eboss was nice enough to approve of my last min 2 hrs leave i guess? haha. had dinner, then closed shop can. haha. reached home at like 1am. slept at 3am.

my life's hectic man. im yearning for a whole day to stay at home to lie on my bed to stare into space, or just close my eyes and get some rest. feel like crying all out, so that my stress and all could be gone. but i realised i cant anymore. im so lame. perhaps my pride's stopping me from crying. im not sure. but somewhere inside me just tells me, if i cry, i'll lose to wadever obstacle im facing now. Juexiu always says im a super woman. haha. im not, but im a wanna be? i duno. i'd been working so hard, until im no longer sure why am i here for. feeling so much emptiness inside me. pathetic. has my passion made me, or has it ruined me? im not sure. haha.

stupid cgh is trying to kill us. wad stupid christmas party planning, stupid work, and wad else, a stupid customer satisfaction survey proj to be done by us FOR them, then we must prepare a presentation for them to see?! hello. and ms hor, pls. i know u're trying hard to get this PBL done... but it's too much for me to bear man. im tired. thot could rest on weekend, but now i dread it, cuz i've so many assignments to do! and wad else? MP. something with i havent thot of the title even yet. im so behind time. but i simply dun have much brain cells left to keep thinking of such thigns man. sad life.

gonna meet ms hor and bendy soon. tt idiot's late AGAIN. so late this time. im like hungry here waiting for him to come so we can go and find ms hor. working sucks huh. know he needs the money so i shall not complain much for NOW.

OH i got my pay last weekend! from my cafe. but oh well. i duno what drove me, but i gave all my money to my mummy. im so weird nowadays. haha. fillial child? i duno. but i think she'll need it more than me for now. i shall wait for the pharmacy's pay to come, which is taking hell long and is driving me nuts. haha. then i can pay charm and my phonebills.

oh this is a super long entry. WA i have nothing to do ma. so might as well. hahaha. anyways, theres this auntie over at my pharmacy called Jessica. she's damn fuNNy. haha. shes the supervisor of the pharmacy la, recently promoted. always carrying tonnes of baskets (which are tghe individual prescriptions to be packed) over to the packoing counter.. and she'll start saying, "lai oh, packing Loh, can u all pls come and pack pls" HAHA. guess wad. today during liek the most common lunch time time slot at 2 plus, me and edwin my classmate, we're standing there packing la. then she came over and said the same thing, then both of us stared at her.. and we said.. we're the only ones here! hahaha. then she gave a blank stare and said, AIyoyo then i shout so loud for wad, but u mean we really have just two of u? OH no die LOHhhh. Hahahaha i feel lame, but her face was damn fuNJNy. oh and anyway, we failed the impromptu test we had last thurs. hahaha i got the highest score, failed by 2 marks. and the rest, ahem dun need to mention la since they got lower than me. HAHA. bleah. damn lame, gotta do corrections can. it felt like pri sch sia. haha we had to go round and ask pharmacy techinicans for answers. ahha. so cute.

lets see wad should i do tonight. Logbook? yeah maybe, MP sypnosis? Yup. and... my constipation assignment for my supervisor/ YEAh maybe it's time to do. HAHA. so much work in one night. bleah. i feel shitty. okie la. lib's closing and lame ben is not here yet. SIAN. okie. i miss deb. i miss gracce.. ayes. =( byebye