this week had been a rough week.
in fact, very rough.
I was just started to get all excited to edit my photos and upload them on FB at the start of the week,
then to have my mum hospitalised on Tuesday morning.
Honestly, what a holiday.
She was admitted due to vomiting and terrible stomach pain.
Initially we thought that was just food poisoning.
but who knew, the conditions were much more serious.
she was in terrible pain for 2 full days before the docs decided to send her for a scan and x-ray.
she was suspected of infection and crap what appendicitis.
in the end, it turned out to be that her intestines at right abdomen were stuck together.
this has resulted in bowel obstruction and nothing could be passed down.
everything was stuck in her intestines, and then the wasted turned into toxins that were causing her much pain.
just when i thought the pipe suction (or whatever u call it) for the next one day was making her better.
the doctors came to a conclusion that she still has to go for an op - to fix the intestines so that her bowels can be passed down smoothly.
since the pipes suction din really help and she was still in pain, but lesser.
but worried us the most, was another discovery from the scan.
she has a 10cm mass grown on one of her kidneys.
for goodness sake, it's almost the same size of the entire kidney itself!
SIGH. to grow this big, doc said it has been with her for a few years.
and i thank god it's a blessing that we managed to find out through this hospital trip.
and he said, it's highly likely malignant since it has grown THAT big. so a surgery is necessary - to remove her kidney.
it came as a shock to my entire family, especially my poor mum who was still in pain, knowing that she has to go through 2 surgeries one after another.
but the fortunate thing is the cells has not spread to other parts of her body. but more tests need to be run for her lungs and bones to ensure everything is okay.
i mean. honesly how well should we take this news when all we thought was a mere food poisoning case.
in the end they have to open her up two times to make sure she's doing fine.
i was terribly upset two days back. and i cant imagine how my mum is feeling.
had been taking off and running off from office to visit her and spending as much time as i can with her.
the fear of losing her is scary.
and of course, i took over the household chores at home so as not to worry my mum.
it's been a painful process to do accumulated housework back home after a long day at work and hospital.
and whats worse? im a newbie at it, and it's damn tiring lah.
sigh. the saddest thing was when i was doing stuff at home, i kept getting reminded of my mum who had been doing all this crap for so long.
it was difficult to not think about it at all.
and it really pricks me to see her in pain, lying on the bed. the part when i have to hold back all these emotions and ensure that i still smile and talk when im with her, and consoling the poor dad at home at the same time, is gross.
as hospital bills are piling up, i have my bro scrambling to claim for insurances and deciding a ward for mum.
life sucks because i never had savings and i wont be able to churn out money anytime soon since i am leaving this full time job.
the only plus point about leaving now is, i will have more time at home to help out and spend time with mum.
my sis in law, who's giving birth to her 3rd kid real soon have difficult moving on her own and walking, not to mention now she has a little asher to take care.
so i told them to stay in my house, so that i can help with housework and the kid.
life is gonna suck so much for next few months.
i don't know how am i going to handle all this to come.
the thought of it scares me.
but all i want, is my mum to get better.
thinking in her shoes, it's really a 'WTF' feeling that when i thought it was nothing, i get to go thru 2 surgeries and remove one kidney forever. WTF.
poor thing. i really pray she gets better soon. and i have to be strong!!!!!
i have no mood to go out, lost my great appetite for food and i thank god that tx and some really good friends are here for me.
but i will survive!!!!!! GRR!!!!!!! :D
byebye world. back to clothes and laundry. visiting mum later as she just had her intestinal surgery.
in fact, very rough.
I was just started to get all excited to edit my photos and upload them on FB at the start of the week,
then to have my mum hospitalised on Tuesday morning.
Honestly, what a holiday.
She was admitted due to vomiting and terrible stomach pain.
Initially we thought that was just food poisoning.
but who knew, the conditions were much more serious.
she was in terrible pain for 2 full days before the docs decided to send her for a scan and x-ray.
she was suspected of infection and crap what appendicitis.
in the end, it turned out to be that her intestines at right abdomen were stuck together.
this has resulted in bowel obstruction and nothing could be passed down.
everything was stuck in her intestines, and then the wasted turned into toxins that were causing her much pain.
just when i thought the pipe suction (or whatever u call it) for the next one day was making her better.
the doctors came to a conclusion that she still has to go for an op - to fix the intestines so that her bowels can be passed down smoothly.
since the pipes suction din really help and she was still in pain, but lesser.
but worried us the most, was another discovery from the scan.
she has a 10cm mass grown on one of her kidneys.
for goodness sake, it's almost the same size of the entire kidney itself!
SIGH. to grow this big, doc said it has been with her for a few years.
and i thank god it's a blessing that we managed to find out through this hospital trip.
and he said, it's highly likely malignant since it has grown THAT big. so a surgery is necessary - to remove her kidney.
it came as a shock to my entire family, especially my poor mum who was still in pain, knowing that she has to go through 2 surgeries one after another.
but the fortunate thing is the cells has not spread to other parts of her body. but more tests need to be run for her lungs and bones to ensure everything is okay.
i mean. honesly how well should we take this news when all we thought was a mere food poisoning case.
in the end they have to open her up two times to make sure she's doing fine.
i was terribly upset two days back. and i cant imagine how my mum is feeling.
had been taking off and running off from office to visit her and spending as much time as i can with her.
the fear of losing her is scary.
and of course, i took over the household chores at home so as not to worry my mum.
it's been a painful process to do accumulated housework back home after a long day at work and hospital.
and whats worse? im a newbie at it, and it's damn tiring lah.
sigh. the saddest thing was when i was doing stuff at home, i kept getting reminded of my mum who had been doing all this crap for so long.
it was difficult to not think about it at all.
and it really pricks me to see her in pain, lying on the bed. the part when i have to hold back all these emotions and ensure that i still smile and talk when im with her, and consoling the poor dad at home at the same time, is gross.
as hospital bills are piling up, i have my bro scrambling to claim for insurances and deciding a ward for mum.
life sucks because i never had savings and i wont be able to churn out money anytime soon since i am leaving this full time job.
the only plus point about leaving now is, i will have more time at home to help out and spend time with mum.
my sis in law, who's giving birth to her 3rd kid real soon have difficult moving on her own and walking, not to mention now she has a little asher to take care.
so i told them to stay in my house, so that i can help with housework and the kid.
life is gonna suck so much for next few months.
i don't know how am i going to handle all this to come.
the thought of it scares me.
but all i want, is my mum to get better.
thinking in her shoes, it's really a 'WTF' feeling that when i thought it was nothing, i get to go thru 2 surgeries and remove one kidney forever. WTF.
poor thing. i really pray she gets better soon. and i have to be strong!!!!!
i have no mood to go out, lost my great appetite for food and i thank god that tx and some really good friends are here for me.
but i will survive!!!!!! GRR!!!!!!! :D
byebye world. back to clothes and laundry. visiting mum later as she just had her intestinal surgery.
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