Feeling the weight on my shoulders

Didn't have a too good day yesterday at work.
went for a meeting with boss that got us into shit talking to 2 angmohs.
cuz we cancelled a workshop on them one day before that.
well - due to many circumstances so it's not entirely our fault - though i would say we need to bear some responsibility.

ended, had starbucks with boss
bitched about work
and she told me more progress of whats work gonna be for us next year.
it sucks when she tells me and im not allowed to tell the world.
honestly, i don't need to know that much.
because it does not make me feel any better.

i only know my workload for next year is gonna crazy.
other than recruiting jobseekers to register, get ppl to do video, collaborating with schools/organisations/workshops..
i gotta do sales also.
i mean - i know im great, but not that great.

feeling the stress all over.
i don't want to do this, at all.
with delayed salaries and immense workload,
i had been already super overloaded.

i don't know how am i going to deal with this new job scope altogether.
but i know im not taking it very well right now.
feeling very unmotivated, like everything at work just seems to feel so heavy.

if im to leave this job, where do i go?
it's not easy finding a good team like i have over here.
i cherish all the colleagues/friends i have made here.
it's not easy to adapt to yet another new environment and deal with my schoolwork at the same time.

sigh. life really sucks.
i either endure or i quit.
it's that simple.
i don't know whats my priority now.
studies of course, right!
so what does that mean?

feeling really low.

mum is asking me to quit my job.
everyone is.
but i love what im doing right now.
thats the only reason why im still here.

so.. whats the next step?

no idea.