ahhhh.

my cough and flu are killing me.
it's the 5th day of my flu and i'm still not recovering.

parents finally came back last night
and the outburst of my nephew's cries carried on the entire night.
it was so bad that i woke up every hour.
got so pissed that it worsened my gastric pain that lasted throughout the night.

i dont understand u know.
if you do not intend to shower care and concern, and most important love towards your kid.
please do not cause distress by giving birth to more then.
if you cannot handle or simple cant be bothered, you just are not fit to be parents.

it was infuriating and sad seeing my poor boy cry the entire night.
yet the mum had nv stepped out of her room to even check on him.
whether he had been to the doc's the day before, she simply had no idea.

the patience and tolerance i had for her reached its limits last night.
i blew and just went to slp.
or rather, attempted to.
all the vulgarities and the words to be said were already there.
just that, for the sake of peace and harmony and not aggravate the situation,
i swallowed it back down.

past few nights of baby sitting were good enough to make my cough and flu last for eternity.
i felt like a mum waking up few times in the night, instead of his real parents.
it did not feel like burden, but, i did feel sad for this poor boy.
especially when the especially doting grandparents were not around.

argh. just freaking pissed.
mood is still bad this morning waking up with gastric pain.
and now im coughing like hell.
i wish i could just stop blowing my nose, stop coughing, and stop breathing.
it's getting really too tiring.

worst of all, i cant afford another 30 bucks for doc.
getting too poor.

if anyone were to complain about their life, ask me first.

pissed....