Unsettled heart

Many things are happening right now.
my mind is tired and cloudy.

Finally had my last lesson for the term last night.
got scolded by lecturer to shut my mouth! haha EPIC.
it has been soooo long since i got this from lecturer - those were the days back in poly!
so i wasnt really offended, in fact amused.
As we finally reached the end of the lesson, few of us crowded at 1 corner, and bitched bout how difficult Macro-econs is getting.
Trust me - i bearly started.
going to chiong tmr till mon!

I'm going over to brother's hse to stay tonight.
gonna pack my clothes and just hop over for the weekend.
told my parents and brother, and they agreed!
well - of course betting on the fact that i wont survive long there on my own.
i thought so too. whatever, we shall just see how it goes.
it's all the way in fernvale of punggol area.
good luck gracey - you better study!!!

slept at 2am last night. now im acting like a zombie.
bought new eyeliner last night! my blusher broke into pieces. sighhhh.
i have to buy something once inawhile - will die if i don't. no meaning to life.

still waiting for reply from the company.
mum was not agreeing to me if i'm to hop job for increment for just $200 more.
but she has no idea how bad i want to leave tp right now.
though i do agree it's bad. so i'm just waiting.

had a good chat with my mum and bro in the middle of the night last night.
we talked abt him wanting to get a bigger hse to stay together with us..
and i insisted on having my own room, if not i'm not moving.
well - i'm really not keen lah... look at him and my sis. i'll die with the 2 kids ard. no freedom.
my mum is super fickle minded.
i hate how she always complained abt not wanting to stay with my bro next time,
and yet agreeing to everyting he said last night.
sometimes u know, i cant help, if you bother speaking up for your own good.
too bad then.

received an email this morning:
one of my BETTER lecturers got accused to leaking exam qns to previous batch of students
i mean - whats wrong with providing exam guidelines?
students were dumb enough to copy and paste with no relevance. why blame the lecturer.
when lecturers are not even informed of the exam qns i nthe first place.
He's a nice guy, funny dude, and always relate experience with teaching.
and he shares his life experience with us. I respect him for being optimistic and strong in life.
it's just how disgusted i get with education systems these days.......
working with TP... seeing things happening.
studying in mDIs... disgusted by how commercialised things can become instead of upholding the thought of getting real lecturers who care.

it is really disappointing.
it's making me a little emo this morning, with my tiredness of course.
made me think alot as well.
it's really good to hear that he is still happy and strong.
i mean... normal people would probably be crushed by such nonsense.
it just sucks that the reality of the world makes people hard to be kind and good these days.

i'm damn tired.
can die. today still gotta stay back to help with ice cream work.
next thursday, friday, sat are gross. i doubt i'll do well this time really, no time.

shall go clear up my work before i go on leave tmr.
byeeee