Not well

It's finally Friday, but it's a gloomy morning for me.
Not sure if it's PMS, or it's just everything thats happening around me.
Life is getting, SO tiring.

Slept around 1am last night, tried to chiong my essays for econs.
but the fact that im not understanding what i was writing really pissed me off.
It's unusual that i'm so lost in a subject that i've attending classes for.
Sigh - and it is really demoralising to some extent.
I cant seem to do well in anything these days.

It's scary looking at how far i have progressed in my revision.

Now I have to confess, setting up a company is really tough?
Clar, me, TX and Janice have agreed to set up a brand new QSS.
No longer Que Sera Sera that is.
We have developed marketing brochures to approach schools to clinch sales
and 22nd November is an important day with MJR kids...
though that is still under my name, but it's gonna make or break a long term sales acc from MJR

Many ideas generated but little time given.
The thought of wanting to create a brand new set of sandcastle tools for ourselves was really tough.
at least it is not something that we can just create out of the blue, and letting everyone know how to use and guide students on the tools on actual day.
It's disheartening that clar is forever busy.
though that was expected at the very start, but the absence of her support is really disheartening?
we once said, we're pillars of support for each other.
right now, i think i'm losing it.

If it's on a normal day, I guess i would have settled it easily.
BUt it happens to fall on my day of exam.
The thought of it frustrates me as I cant be there the whole day to see it through.
Uncertainties scare me these days.

Having bf in the same team can be difficult.
for the past week, our conversations have not strayed further than talking abt work.
Imagine, everyday we work in the day, and we work again at night.
Woah. that mental stress is killing me big time, because after work work, I'm back to my studies.

i'm really really not handling it well.
it's like a huge burden on my shoulders that i can barely breathe these days.

Just last night, i was half aslp when he finally called me
i thought we could just have some relaxing conversation and quickly go to slp
and who knew, god. at 1230am, i was explaining all the teambonding games on the phone.
on usual days, i'm definitely helpful and it wouldnt be a problem.
but i was on the brim of dying.
snapped for don't know what reason, and the phonecall ended in the tensed atmosphere.
that definitely din give me sweet dreams for the night.

Sigh.
it's hard to work with partners
it's harder to work with bf.
nowadays i cant differentiate whats work and whats not.
guess he's stressing up as well.
with this kinda tension, how are we going to make things work?

I took the whole morning to think things through.
just want to take a break from everything.
can i just do nothing for one day?

tireddddd.