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Boss had to call me on last friday to scold me over something that i have done my part in following up and just waiting for reply.
it was purely retarded since he knew that i was on leave but he still decided to spoil my day.

He asked to meet yesterday at work.
i knew it's nothing good since we usually don't have such impromptu meetings
and i was right.

he went around the bush asking me if student development had been taking up alot of my time.
director said in order to help others, we must do well on our own parts too.
underlying meaning huh, explain in a short while
he felt that sales had not been moving. In my heart, bullshit?
he felt that i had not been doing my part in improving sales. are you sure?
he asked me for what i do in a day, and explained he's not trying to micro manage. then what were you trying to prove?
it was highly annoying because of the fact that sales for the past 2 months had doubled that of what was earned last year between apr - may.
i mean, given someone, who had no experience in doing anything like that, started from scratch.
when i told him sales did improve, all he could say was, but not good enough leh.
i'd have slogged so much harder for him if he said things like, good job, now u should maintain and improve.

instead, he went round and round teling me that i need to focus on KW stuff more than stud development. which i must really say i havent been doing any stud dev work since the end of orientation.
even if i did, it was always planning after work or on weekends. what have i done to obstruct my work in kW?
when sales was alright, he told me i was neglecting students training, i needed to follow up with MP students and entrepreneurship training. I did.
had been busy with preps for entrepreneurship talk, workshop, and MP students.,..
and now he says, my sales are not good enough.
like seriously, make up your mind!

and the worst thing of all, he wanted me to take over QAQC totally?
then.. what the heck is aunty gonna be doing.
sit there and shake legs while i slog my life away?
i mean, it was already unfair that shes getting me involved in all of her work
and now i have to simply take over, given his reason that i'll have better control and better idea of whats happening.
i mean seriously, have anyone heard of ppl doing production, qaqc and sales at the same time?
it is simply - R I D I C U L O U S .

i said, carrying ice creams up and down was damn tiring for the past 2 months.
just far too many movements climbing up and down the stairs.
he gave me a blank look, and asked, why you do yourself, where were your students?
To him, students are called free labour, whether they are busy or not.
and that even if i have to climb the stairs 5 times / day, students can do the job.
so to him, i was being unproductive and a pure wasting of time.

now i know, thats what i get when i pulled my back.
for being stupid enough to do it myself.
oh well, speechless, nothing to say.

i insisted that i din want to take over QAQC, though i know he was forcing it down my throat.
told him, KIV, while i improve on sales.
i knew my face was black enough to show. but i really couldnt care less.

hard work and efforts of making sure everything in KW are running well and in order, was just a waste of time, since boss only saw the fact that im skiving away when i was simply taknig a break from the long long busy period.

i do not like the way he speaks, of stuff. the way he assumes and decides on something even before we even talked about it. this is reaching my limits.

immediately afte rmeeting yesterday, i sent him the sales records. and guess what, after the long prep talk he had with me, he replied ' excellent job! keep it up.' HUH. that was seriously fake to the max, at least it didnt feel that he meant it.
he added on with, i knew u're a little emotionally affected by what i said, but please don't get me wrong i know sales isnt easy.

then... encourage, not micro manage!

was really upset last night.
i lost all motivation to work harder for sales.
because to me, it feels that its just not gonna be recognised.
this sales thing is getting so sickening day by day.
i don't know how long i can last.
talked to tkb today, and told him i'll step down on my involvement.
this was probaby the last thing i wwant to do, but nochoice.
i had to at least keep my place in there if i still wanted something out of it.

it's hard lah. damn tough to suckit up.
i just have to vomit everything out, rest awile, and then swallow things down again.

without clear instructions and objectives, how to work?
theres only 1 me.
words twist and change whenever he liked it.
first im employed for entrepreneurship
then im employed for anything pertaining to KW.
ridiculous.

im out of here. don't wish to think about it.
im just gonna work and think of ways to start something on my own.
no way, i don't want to work for others if i have the chance.

gdnight.