busy Busy BUSY

with classes going on...
and his change of shifts in army.
things are getting a little tough for me here.

i do not want to change priortiies.
it is always a first come first serve basis.
but seems like it does not work for him somehow.
things agreed can be changed within a short span of time.
information is conveyed, instead of asking for suggestions or whether i am comfortable with the change.

being optimistic is good.
but that is only if both feel that way.
i am, apparently not feeling it.
and it will probably becomes worse when it comes to January 2010.

why say lunch is good too.
i have my own working colleagues.
own lunching partners.
sigh.
i just dislike that fact that i have to accomodate to his changes.
sometimes, it gets a little frustrating.

damn sian.
hope i'm just emo-ing for nothing.
oh well.
this feeling better go away soon.

i'm quite unhappy.
but i guess things will work out soon.
this is a difficult transition period.
now im wondering if im serious in taking up tuitions.
cuz that means - i have lesser time to myself and revision.

but i need the money.

how i wish money falls from the sky.
everyday constantly i think about money.
that feeling isjust quite bad.

too many liabilities at my age.
i am already being damn independent
paying own hp bill, internet, sch feess.
what else?
sigh.
sometimes life is just too hard u know.

sometimes i just wonder why cant i live life like others.
grrr. i cant want too many things.
because i cant afford too.
theres a limit to where i can go.
sigh. guess i have to sweep all these thoughts off my head.
cuz it's really not feeling good having these things going on like a mary-go-round.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.
I hope i'm just having Monday Blues.
or i'm forever blue these days.
gastric sucks!!! grrrr.

okok. i shall shut up and go back to work.
enough of my whines today.
SIGH.

bye