=)

i slept at like 3am last night!
i mean.. this morning.
feeling REALLY tired today
nevertheless i'll make my way to work.
counting down to another 2 working days of the week. =)

many things are running thru my mind now.
oh well. i shall list them ALL down.

NOv camp. -postponed to 2010-
SIGH! im disappointed!
was so looking forward for another camp this year...
even if it's not going to be QSS's. it's a camp!
due to stupid flu alert and inappropriate dates, it's postponed.
now im wondering, what shall i do with the leave days i have...
and.. suddenly lost interest in doing many things i wanted to do.
right after July. Oh well.
like what clar said, we have nothing to lose. so.. whatever.!

ASC. -sincerity counts-
talked to tkb about the main comm camp.
feedback was, theres no need to follow old practices.
we can even have a normal bbq for them to relax,
as long as these kids know how to manage their time well,
we should accept them as they are.
feedback about Mr. president was:
it's not true that he doesnt want you to be involved,
just that since u're just a few years older,
u may want to speak to him with sincerity and be less stern.
that pricked. real hard.
define 'sincerity'.
go ahead and have the bbq, grace chan has decided to leave things to them.

i thought tkb would a least bit agree with the part about training leaders.
well. guess i was wrong.
now it feels like im stuck with a group of ppl who view things differently.
impossible to implement changes like how i wanted to.
do what they deem fit.
i shall be the normal grace chan that joins in and act retarded and have fun.
just don't make me pick up the mess if they ever fall.
fingers crossed.


whats next? i have 5 min more before i need to run out of my house.
i wonder how long this sweeet feeling is gonna last.
few days, few months, or i hope, years?
i've agreed that i need to move on with life and stop holding on to the past.
and hence, a new r/s has begun for me.
i do not know if decision was rash or irrational,
at least im not feeling it now. =)
i've recognised the fact that if things are meant to happen, they will happen.
so no matter how much i'd like to hide in that turtle shell of mine,
i guess it's time i shall learning how to crawl all over agian.
tingxuan ah tingxuan. tell me it's happening right now. =p
lala. so right now, i'm happy. =)

HEHE. shall talk more next time yeah.

rights. i gotta run!
TP here i come!