longer weekends please

SIGH. a blink of an eye, saturday is now OVER.

yeap!
the church wedding today was held at the church i used to love being in in the past.
met my dear friend rene rene whom i din see for YEARs..
spoke in the same way we used to talk to each other.
nothing felt too foreign, just that perhaps we needed to update each other bt our lives.
i realised, i miSSED her.
stepping into the auditorium, sitting there with rene and waited for ceremony to start.
all these... were nothing but caused me to be really nostalgic.
God. i missed this place, i really do.

back then i was in sec one, how i was brought to this church.
every saturday we'll attend service and sat together as a cell group.
at least, that was how it went for the 4 years in sec school.
Poly started, church shifted to expo.
things started to change.
perspective, time schedule, priorities that were not supposed to change, changed.
attendance for service dropped drastically from 100 percent, to 0 at end of year 3.
and then, boom. i disappoeared. of course, wtih my dear besties at that time charm and rene who left way before i did.

and then, i was left stranded.

rene and i talked, about our lives.
not too much in detail, but was good enough to get a rough picture.
shes attached, happy, and working well.
me single, happy with my new job, forever busy with my own little entertainments.
then we saw our dear ex-cellgroup mates. they screamed for us in excitement!
trust me. that was wad i feeared, ppl asking how have u been, why havent u contacted us?!
but thank god. that din come from them at all.
all we did was to update each other. and laughing like bimbotic idiots like how we always did.
i realllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy am missing these girls.

perhaps God had a purpose in letting me go for the wedding service today.
to the very first church audi i started out with, tog with the girls whom i first had cell group with.
and my very own cell group leader who offered me a biggggg hug when we finally talked.
trust me. i was close to tears, really wanted to tell her im sorry for the stupid mistakes i made.
but yup. it didn't happen. hELLO it's in a wedding reception!

the bride karen wee was the most beautiful i have ever seen.
i totally cannot believe this dear friend i knew since sec 1 is now a SAJC GP teacher.
haha. im so proud of her! and getitng a really sweet husband aint easy.
yup. so is my comment on fb: Love seemed so sweet looking at these newly weds.

so now. im stuck. im not sure. perhaps i'll really return to fcbc for service.
joining back as a newbie once again.
it takes alot of courage. to face people u've known for a long time but hasnt contacted since don't know when.
i guess i will. just that i have to desert wallace lim. but i guess he'll understand.
unless he's gonna scold me im not a good friend, then SO BE IT.
i'll go wherever im led to. i guess. -)

NOSTALGIC.

evening was k session with zw and kids.
HAHA so funny.
i think these 3 big boys are simply retardedly funny.
it's a joy to be laughing the whole night, and allowing my mind to be free for awhile.

now im back to square one.
my eyes are unusually tired. they're hurting.
i think i really need slp.

gdnight!