Gooood Friday

it's already 3am.
good friday has passed since 3 hours ago.
im TIRED.

havent been updating huh.

well. fever went on and on from monday till tues night.
i guess doing vaccination when i was having flu was a serious no no.
cuz vaccines usually weaken one's immune system..
so when im already sick, the vaccine will decrease effect of all medicines taken.
so yup. it had been a terrible 2 days. because i still had to do delivery, and doing presentation in front of 30 kids on tuesday evening.
that got me breaking out into cold sweat though.

Wed night, chose to go home.
but returned to tp at 930pm.
there was only one thought in my mind: i needed to do something.
not sure how well message was conveyed.
have seen the worst of situations.
got me speechless, just shut up and listened.
i know i wasnt there to put the blame on anyone, but to try to improve situations.
perhaps approach was wrong. language to communicate was not right, timing was wrong. blah blah. all the factors mag hor ever mentioned.
it was perhaps a hit on the nail.

weekaaaa0 is just 3 days away.
in fact, 2 days.
we cant afford to have people tumbling down.
my biggest worry, has yet to fade away.
just hoping nightmares will not turn out to be deja vu.

have faith!
we all need to have faith!
2 more weeks, and we'll be done.
hang in there. i told myself. so that i can tell the rest.

after this. hopefully, all disrupted friendships will then mend themselves again.

it's good friday.
im not in church, neither was i in cell group.
got invited by ex cell grp leader to join in today.
due to i don't nkow what. awkward situations, guilt, and lala etc
i chose to turn her down.
peck asked, why arent u in church today.
my ans was, i don't know which church to go.
sad but it was so true.
walked past a catholic church today...
i so wanted to even step in there.
sigh. it sucks not knowing what i want sometimes.

now im fretting if i should go church on sunday.
because.. i don't even know if there'll be service.

finally bought tickets for redang trip. =D
set to be 8th to 11th.
though a little disruption here and there.
but yes, it's confirmed!
so excited. cant wait.

bought a few things today.
an alarm clock finally, a top, a bag, and so on.
most were on credit.
cuz im seriously too poor to offer cash now. haha.
just praying that my claims will come to past next wed, the 15th! salary day.

shall go to bed now.

goodnight.