WAIT

wait wait wait.
God says, seek and you shall find.
how long do we have to seek?
how long do we have to wait?
how long of waiting then determines our faith.
i dont know.

But i shall wait.

cuz... i dont really know wad else i can do other than waiting.
confused.
things are coming out of my mouth.
a qns, so easy. yet so hard to get it out.
with that answer, it can determine where am i heading to.
but i chose not to.
i do not want to break the balance once again.
now, it's good enough. or it's the best i could do.

so grace chan.
stop being stupid emo crap.
stupid and naive. sis was right.
brrr. break this bondage. it sucks.

im spoiling it.
everyday when i try harder i get hit harder.
gooooood friends.
yup. thats allllllllllllll.
cant deny that whiny tiny bit of disappointment in my heart.
but i thought again, thats good enough.
isn't it?

FOCUS! grace chan.
goals setting workshop with boss as my partner this morning was gross.
but lunch with alison and another grace colleague was great.
cuz im eating with NEWer ppl now.
mag hor was on mc today and not again tomor.
wallace loves to abandon me ANYWAY.

meeting at koolwerkz was even more gross.
cuz i was so sleepy listening to their talk.
which got me nowhere since its also the first time i ever stepped into koolwerkz.
wad batch processing, batch freezer, continuous freezer, pasteurizer.. HUH?!
god knows. ALL i knew was the GIGANTICLY HUGE COCKROACH that went climbing up and down the wall. grosssssssss.
and uncle was good at catching it. he's damn adorable for a 60 year old can. HAHA.

i don't want to think too much.
i justwant to sleep.
i just want to laugh.
to miss when i miss it.
to forget when i choose to.
to be sad when i cant help to.
i just want to be myself sometimes.
but somehow, things are getting tougher each time.
i must learn to handle my emotions. SIGh.

more work tomor. i hope.
more deals coming in, i know.
more things to learn, i WILL!

=) love.
nights.