it's just like a lullaby

me, 'wow. i feel like im doing week zero. this is braincell killing'

her, 'huh. u call this doing week zero? it's brainless compared to how much brain u need for weekzero'

me, 'yeah obviously i know. but still, it's bloody tiring'

her, 'yeah yeah. i don't even think it kills much brain cells'

of course. u shit. i'd been doing all the work. coming up with all the things to say.
all you do is to follow wad i asked u to do.
so, wad braincells have u lost? perhaps some cells from ur delicate hands.

not again. not again. NOT AGAIN.
im so sick and tired of ur attitude.
yet im tyring again, tryng again, trying again.
cant u see im trying.
at least show some appreciation that im trying.

i don't know if u're tyring to make things better.
but apparently. i do not see or feel it.
cuz, not being able to hear wad u said, u got annoyed.
asking u to repeat 2nd time, u got pissed.
not responding according to wad u asked or said, u said nvm.
what the hell do u want from me???????

hello. not being able to hear clearly.. it's SO NORM of me.
u mean u din know? or today's the first itme u're knowing me?
it's just irritably annoying when i've to tolerate ur attitude shit all the time.

i told you off.
always. right before u step out of my hse.
this time, wad isit?
i said, i cant stand ur bloody attitude anymore. how do u want ppl to accomodate and compromise anymore?
then u said, yeah yeah it's my fault, its okie, don't need to say anything.
to hell with it okie.
fine.... i said whatever and sent u out of my hse.
it's difficult la huh.
im so BLOODY tired of this.......
when it alaywas have to happen when i've so much things on my mind and it's 2 and im not slping and im working tomor morning.

and just when i opened my door.
i saw some dog poo at my corridor.
F* the person who let loose the bloody dog to do this okie.
it's indeed freaking rude and smelly.
notice that im really pissed.

great.
wad a great night.
it alawyas end like that when i meet her.
as much as i try.
why the hell am i making my own life so difficult?
i nv knew why. i just thought my patience just kept refilling itself.

now it's running out.
tomor it'll be refilled again.
wad the hell?

great. i seriously hate NHG. national healthcare group.
going for some retarded congfress thats compulsory tomor after work.
why always like that.
wasting time and penalty is a hundred bucks if don't turn up.
sigh. wadever it is for.

im broke. damn broke.
i need money.
no more spending for the rest of the month.
cuz im spending enough.
BLAH.

feeling better after ranting it out.
ignore my coarse lang. as i usualy sound a little btter than this.
hAHA>
im retarded. perhaps im danm tired.

time to slp.
2 more days to interview. none is done. no formal wear, no shoes, no prep.
great. im gonna have fun dying.

bye.