Ahuh.
i'm back here again after quite sometime.
what can i say.
completed the hi-bye game with my medicine friends at work.
completed the excel sheet full of expiry dates that had them engraved in my mind right now.
and i feel good. cuz thats the task of the wk, and im done.
close friend at work just left today, last day at work.
he wrote me a card thats full of crap that could make me tear.
sigh. another cycle of boring days are to come.
i cant help but to feel emo.
met my beloved ppl for dinner.
i shall not mention it's QSS since... it doesnt feel like it anymore.
it's just me sis kong mic and juv.
wallace lim that nv appeared. and so be it. i cant be bothered anymore.
he can que sera sera as long as he wants.
then he'll realise when he finally settles down we're no longer ard.
cont to take clar and i for granted.
feelings of unappreciation just kept running thru my veins. it sucks.
not exactly having a good night over here.
though i wish all sweet dreams and gdnite.
thought i would slp peacefully at least for one night.
sigh. it was not possible with the stunts zw and jx were giving me.
and yes. a part of my worries faded away when i received zw's phonecall.
but yes. the rest of my worries got manifested.
and it became rounds and rounds of scolding and reprimanding.
im so sorry. but im at my limit for swallowing wads to come.
i've said all i wanted to, and needed to.
being stuck in between made me feel breathless for the past few months.
and if it's to cont... there'll be one more depressed soul in spore.
i need some space to breathe and eat and slp and rest.
so i requested for some.
but wad to come was something i couldnt stand swallowing.
all the sayings of my importance as a friend, how impt my support is.. blah blah.
that just caused my tears rolling down my cheeks.
cuz im so sorry. thats all that i can do. and i feel i can do no more.
so. right now. emo crap is back here again.
why say all that. when.. it doesnt feel that i can change one's life anyway.
ur decisions. ur call. it has been like that all the time.
my words, my scoldings and rantings. all for myself to hear.
my mood goes on a roller coaster all the time.
how am i to take it?
i cant bloody cope with al these.
wish that i could have a few more days rest in the hosp.
where.. i din have to worry abt anything but myself.
this is sucky man.
sigh.
this is it la.
i need a break.
just give me this weekend for it.
i'll be around from next week onwards.
i try.
but i still believe it's up to one to decide for their own life. theres no such things as not able to control. no way.
feeling damn sian.
going to bed.
blogged at such hours. 3am. knowing that i wont be in time to blog when i wake up.
haha.
laugh it off.
gdnight.
la la land.
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