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Well. apart from bintan. i KNow im random.

WEnt back to school yesterday. packed log, talked to friends, tan kb and ms hor. good chill out session. was happy to be back again. more like a visiting session. =)

went for dinner at NYDC with my colleagues. thanks to jeremy who made this happen. =) i was happy. received great presents that came with sincerity. add on to all that i've received.

all these were just one of the simple happy moments i yearned for. but they were so little. cuz it wasnt enough to make me forget about my depressed friends.

not exactly feeling well today. depressed cuz of the many depressed ppl around me.

no longer able to have that same level of patience for everyone. i'm sorry peck. it's my fault.

feeling of helplessness nv fails to come back to me all over again.

went drinking for the 3rd time this week. Im sorry. well it just happened. i don't know wad all these indicate. but i do know that it def don't feel good waking up and feeling as lousy as before.

Time for a meet up with him soon. not planned but i have to go. don't feel like going. don't feel like im ready. but i guess i'll still be thick skinned and go. havent talked for months. all i know he's living well and good and happy. so am i. grace chan is stronger than she seems? i hope so much that its true cuz im already looking strong enough. despite the complaints i'd been telling to sis. i hope im stronger than that. everyday im hoping.

counselling is so not my job. i just want to be a friend. but too bad. im becoming one that only knows how to run away. it's depressing. not facing problems all the time. perhaps i should just be like zhiwei. facing it bravely and crying whenever he wants to. maybe in that way, things would be over faster. instead of running away and always coming back again.

i'm trying. okie?

life'll be better. i hope! everyday hoping once again.

going out with mum and bro in like an hrs time. still slacking here in the internet cafe. im lame i know. =) alrights. time to spend time with family and nobody else. i'llbe good and be happy

If running away was a wrong choice, should i just sit down and cry? having to realise that i can no longer cry over such things. it's dumb.

Gracey shall be strong in mind and character.