back from camp

back. after dnd and 4 days 3 nights of camp. yes, physically drained, almost dying man.

dnd happened last wed. yes. hai, it was rather boring. oh well. and i woke damn high heels that made me sprain my ankle. im a loser i know!!!!! hahaha. i guess only i'll sprain my ankle. HAHA. evreyone looked so nice. yup... will post pics if i receive any. =)

then straight after that, i checked into camp on thursday afternoon. woah, everything was mad rush. why? lemme describe everything man. everything about the fantastic log comm. HAHA if dun want to read on, it's fine, cuz it's gonna be a damn long entry.

thursday, took a long time before we set out and buy wadever we needed for the camp. note: it was the most updated information on the logistics to buy by THEN. took us so many hours. returned to school at about 10pm. was damn tired.

then attended a briefing by mr bendy ho, on a MOST updated programme flow, which the confirmed one would be given to us the next day right before all the other participants join us. yes, thurs was the day when all officials report first for preparation. LONG LONG briefing. then, waited for another 1 hour for the four big guys, bendy, joshua, leslie and michael koh to have time for me, so we went thru debriefing skills. that was at 0230. i still remember. haha. next, everyone went into tp compound to reckee for scary places which would be used for nightwalk on 2nd night of camp. well. it was rather boring with 14 ppl walking together huh. walked till like 5 plus? damn tired. went back, still did some preparation, yes. and i slept at 7am and woke up at 9.

Day 1
finally received the latest programme flow. shuhui briefed the log comm on what to do. and all set out to buy the
MOST updated log list. yes.... that was at 10am. reached school at 12pm. time for officials to reprot for duty for registration! how fast!
this time round, the log room had been shifted to engine block. gosh. trust me, i'd nv ever nv ever nv ever, do sucha stupid thing if i could call the shots in everything. cuz that totally killed the log comm for the next 3 days. without slp, without energy, much was drained from walking to and fro from all the way at the end of engine, to applied sci block umpteen times. especially if we needed to carry heavy stuff. that wasnt funny at all. everything ended at 2. we fed many mosqutioes while being stationed at some wulu place to ensure the safety of the participants doing their nightwalk. yeah, a difficult battle fighting with cockroaches and mosquitoes and resisting outselves from dozing off. Shuhui was pissed! haha. everyone was, at how the programme was run. cuz after all, the log ppl would get it, as long as the prog seemed screwed, as we're just following instructions to do the difficult tasks assigned. wel, it's not that screwed, just messy la. my lingo anyway. we all slept at 3am.

Day 2 (day 3 for us)
woke up at 7, started preparing log. well. afternoon seemed like forever. with our tired and aching bodies, we bcame half photographers and participants. well, our roles were not defined. a few hours that seemed like the whole day, until now im still wondering why i felt that way. bendy told me that he felt that way too. why huh? how would i know. haha.
wads next? jeff had terrible stomachache, and vomited. yup, i accomapined him on the cab home, and came back again. waited for half an hour for a stupid cab, in the end i had to call for a cab. and given my tired mind, i still had to listen to the taxi driver's nonsensical nagging about how i shoul dhave told about having him to go to 2 destinations, like jeff's house and back to sch again, on the phone. like how wrong it was for me to have just remembered and hoping that he earns more money to conveniently send me back to school. wad a stupid uncle. was rather pissed, just that i was still polite. ARGH. boyfriend annoyed me by refusing to see doc only until evening, and uncle irritated me by telling me i was not right. sigh. wadever,. seriously. and having him not seeing doc together with my company, made me worry for the whole damn day.
after dinner. we took a short half an hour nap in the staff lounge, and shuhui and i started our two man show. since all the toehr officials were made to join in the game as participants. hai, how complicated! in the end, Station masters din know anything even after a briefing, and logistics came in bulk that they couldnt carry... azuan and sinee came by to help, yup, out of participants status... cuz shuhui and i were simply too tired to handle everything together.
was damn pissed, and stressed. jeff came back, and insisted on helping to push back the tables and trolleys when doc just diagnosed that he had gastric flu. how stubborn. with a screwed up timing, angry and anxious michael bendy and simon and leslie, i felt that too. and felt that i couldnt do anything for them, and seeing things falling apart, i couldnt take it. i cried, while sitting at the corner of the stairs. it felt bad. but i had to be strong i guess, so crying din take a long time. haha. evebrything ended at 2 plus again, jeff and i went to pack up the logistics. by then, i was both mentally and physically drained. the rest were SO tired, all slept. gosh, my legs were hurting like mad.
slept at 6 plus in the morning.

DAy 3
woke up at 10am. breakfast, debrief for the games played. banners painting. yup. next, collation of logistics and a mad rush to buy stuff in the middle of a sunday afternoon worrying that shops might not be opened. yup. it was crazy, drove me bonkers. especially with jeff slping, and shuhui almost left with a few more breaths before she really died, i had to continue with wad was to be done. sighhhhh. i was damn stressed. fighting with time wasnt easy at all. well, who said it was anyway. after buying, time for pack up, and debrief. to my horror, things were bought wrongly and everything was wrong! omnce again. yupppp. sigh, wadever, seriously. haha.
after everything, broke camp. Bendy, Joshua cried damn badly in front of us. sigh..... though i was damn pissed with them the previous night.. .i totally did not have the heart to blame anyone at that point of time. nv seen bendy ho cried so badly before. heard that mic cried the previous night too. simon was stoned. leslie cried for one hour. nothing could be worse thanthe cries from these big guys, and my most beloved ppl. sighhhhh. i was damn emo after that.


sigh. i really wanted to say to them, that i know how it feels. cuz last year, i duno how many times i cried on my own before too. but i couldnt, cuz i was one of those, unknowingly made them feel every worse by telilng them log comm was damn tired cuz of them. yeah, when i was damn pissed of cuz. i nearly cried la..... sighhh wad an emo camp. but i must say, i really learnt alot. though alot of complaints here and there... i still did my job, and the rest did too. deborah and peck were like poor things. cuz of the diarrhea cases, deb had to boil water the whole night after the long amazing race, all the way until morning. see, thats wad we needed to do when things had to move on and improve. log experience was a brand new one. but, i'd still prefer to be stuck at programme flows, games, and be the programme head la. after all, i'd been doing that all the time. perhaps thats why wallace placed me in log comm? i guess, everyone learns differnt things when they're placed in new situations and positions. right, being change ready that is.

i really felt damn sad to see ppl like bendy, michael, leslie and so on.. to learn things the hard way. seeing how they cried, i would know, they really did learn something, in whichever aspect, they did. and they would grow. so i guess, sometimes, long months of nagging is not productive enough compared to a 4 days of messed up camp. i wanted to always protect them from having to learn things in this last resort, but i guess i failed. it hurts me la. sigh.... maybe cuz im still tired right now after going back to sch to clear up log stuff the whole day, thats why im emo. sighhh. moody.

now ijust want to focus on week zero, and these ppl that im gonna be with for the next few weeks. before everyone starts disappearing. im so sad. huijing. yup. im sad that shes not gonna be there for week zero. and im really hoping that i do not cry. everytime i think that theres only like a few weeks left, before i leave these adorable kids, im damn sad. not that we wont meet again of cuz, but... sigh. damn sad. duno how to say. and my bunch of ppl. all the year 3s, especially zhiwei and azuan.AHHh.. sigh. damn sad.

ayes. guess im moody. week zero meeting again tomor. must wake up! going to take a good rest now. nights.