Prayer prayer

hmmm. my grandma fell yesterday and was hospitalized. bad fall indeed. knocked her head against the wall, lost alot of blood, and fractured her bone that connects her leg to the hip. sigh.

my phone got cut off yesterday! din pay bill la. so im going without a phone for the next 2 days. but it's alright, not like it hasnt happened before. i just din like it, cuz i totally din know she fell. until i called my mum using another phone that day after the chalet. would have rushed straight down to SGH A&E if i knew it was that bad. she had like almost 10 stitches on her head can. anyways, i've a stubborn grandma, as always. she injured herself, i seriously do not know what willpower did she has to still be able to struggle to go change into a new shirt and washed the bloody shirt, and waited and realised the blood din stop and there she went calling up my aunt who was at work. she fell at 11am, and at 12, gosh, she was still at home! blood kinda stopped, but when my dad had to carry her cuz she couldnt walk, she started bleeding in the car again. i wondered if i should say i was lucky that i wasnt there, if not i would have either cried or fainted, and made the situation worse.

anyway, was supposed to visit her with jeff only today. but my bro happened to visit her, so drove my parents and us over too. when i was there, i saw her connected to a bag of blood of type 'B'. she needed blood transfusion cuz she was anemic. she was rather in a daze when i talked to her, gosh. it saddened me to see her in pain. anyway, for her fracture, she gotta go for an operation, to remove the bone and implant a metal in, if not, she wont be able to walk for a long long time. well, op has its risks, cuz her heart is not in a good state, had heart attack just early last year. might be dangerous. sigh! but in the end, there're definitely more pros than cons for the operation to happen, and the doctor assured us that it would be a safe operation anyway. so.. yeah, she'll be undergoing the op either this weekend or latest on monday. sigh, my poor grandma.

gonna visit her again tmr. cant really keep my mind off her as long as shes still in hospital. =(

i pray for her recovery. and i feel bad for being a bad granddaughter. =( gdnite.