i love holidays

=) yeah i simply love holidays! alrights. realised my fonts recently had been rather small, so decided to increase my font size! hahaha..

anyway.. CRUNCHYROLL.COM is hell irritating. im getting so annoyed! cuz it's always loading my shows halfway. and youtube for my comp, its totally a failure in loading. sigh! im angry! grrrrrrrrrrrrr. i shall go back to sch and load then. one fine day, probably tomor. hahaha. cuz it's jeff's last paper! i shall go to sch and wait for him to end. =) so sweet right. haha.

anyway met up with charm levin ken and keith last night for dinner and movie! we went to eat crystal jade noodles. haha. not bad la. but the mango pudding was damn good la. haha. as usual, the guys were talking damn alot of crap. haha. and they're arguing over charmaine's thought of just expanding her business and not studying. well, charmaine is planning to expand her Fayfey business, from just making accessories to importing bags and all through wholesale, and sell them out again, and slowly venture into designing her own stuff. well, i thought why not give it a try! haha. since we're still young, and she's confident, i dun see why not try. but i guess she'll want keith's support la, instead of telling her how impractical it is all the time. after all, it's something that she wants to try it out and see it for herself. hmmm. guys nowadays. if we dun try things we want to do now, when will we ever have the chance to do it? if everything fails, she can always start all over again next year, applying into uni again. maybe to others it's like having wasted one whole year doing useless things, but i think, it's really some valuable experience that i think only she'll know how it feels.

it's just like, being in the studies club. as much as all my friends around me told me that i shouldnt be spending so much time on it. even my own brother that i respected the most told me that ccas are useless when we go out to work next time, and he laughed at the word passion. yeah, mocked and laughed at me. perhaps he think that i was naive. i guess so. haha. thinking that the club was everything in my life. perhaps i was. but i told him that im sure i have learnt valuable things that many others did not have a chance to, it's more of a personal development, character learning thingy, how to deal with difficult ppl. i faced all of that when im in here. so why not? it may seem like a waste of time, but, i guess i'd really regret it even more if i had not have the courage to say yes i want to make a difference in my own life, in other ppl's lives. this seemed to be the only way i thought i could touch many ppl's lives thru the many activities. and i believe, in my 3 years here, i've done it somehow. even though, year 3 was the most terrible experience i've ever had being in the club due to so many reasons... so many disappointment, so many argument, seeing ppl leaving one by one, be it physically or mentally.. I had to learn how to let go. i had to learn how to not let it affect me, how to deal with the rest who're still in here with me, how to forgive and forget. I learnt in church, forgive and forget, before god would do the same thing... yeah, but very often, that seemed like the hardest thing to achieve... especially when u realise those things are so serious that u simply cant accept, cant forgive, cant forget. ha.

well. i'll slowly talk about what have the club brought for me in my life. valuable experience and learning points! haha... when i have the mood i guess. but all i want to say is just that, wanting to do soemthing on our own is nothing wrong. even if ppl might think it's impractical, it's a waste of time, or we could be doing something else better, but if we nv tried, i dun think we'll ever know how much some things would mean to us in one way or another. yeah perhaps, like wad others say, we'll get crushed, will get disappointed and need to start all over again in the end. but so wad? i thought life's supposed to be like that, who has not faced the phase tt we needed to start life all over again, not forgetting the old, just letting them go. =)

i guess i'll learn it. fully. after the end of this year's week zero orientation. end of this year's activities. =) i will do it. im a strong girl after all. leaving sch with a big smile on my face like how i've always had one. =))) hehe.

ARGH. it's still not loading!! hahaha.. anyway after tt keith went back to rest while the rest of us still went to watch this movie called letters from iwo jima. okie la. propaganda show. telling ppl how good americans are, how kind they are, and smarter, compared to japanese ppl. wad a weird show. i simply dun think americans are that kind, especially during times of war. it's human nature u see. hahaha. wadever la. shall not comment much. it's okie la that show. Do what is right, not what other think it's right. great thing for anyone to learn this. =) then after tt we went to siglap hong kong cafe and ate again la! wa lao, they're pigs man. i dun usually eat supper these days la. so weird. anyways i reached home at about 3am. haha. havoc man.

slept till 1pm! haha. jeff bought lunch for me. so sweeeeeeet. =) now he's studying somewhere. haha. later might be meeting janelle and janice. -) cya.